Jessie wants a one week break from her boyfriend Chris. The he ends up vanishing. Since they started dating, Chris has written her a love letter every week. This book is a note that she writes to him as she tries to find him. We get a history of their relationship and discover why she wanted the break. There’s some racial issues (she’s Caucasian, Chris is African-American) and mental illness issues addressed (hoarding, depression). This was a decent YA read, but a bit heavy. I just wish that more time was spent addressing some of the serious issues touched upon (don’t want to go into more detail and reveal spoilers!).

This book never once made me smile, it never once made me feel good feelings, it was an all-over the place mess. Just the format of her writing a letter to her missing boyfriend really didn't work, especially in the beginning. She told all the back story of their relationship, he knows, he was there, MAYBE it would have been better if it had been in journal/diary format. Even a change of format could not have helped save this book for me, none of the characters were truly likable.

This is not a love letter by Kim Purcell was surprising. It’s about a boy, Chris,
that goes missing and the character evolution of Jessie, his girlfriend, in form of a letter. I really enjoyed it, it kept my heart racing and aching. They are some trigger warnings for mental illnesses and self-arm. Thank you for the free ebook copy.

I gave this book 4 stars. It was a rush and had it’s ups and downs. Very exhilarating.

I felt a little disappointed with the ending of this book. I was so engaged for three fourths and then we got to the end and I was just sad. This is not a happy ending book and I didn’t feel like much was really resolved. It just goes on long enough to make us cry.

This book definitely delivered with the mystery element. There were so many different angles to consider, each equally probable. I think the author did an amazing job of that. Finding out what really happened was a bit of a downer, but I don’t think the book was long enough to go with the other option.

I liked that there was talk about how damaging racism is. I’ve noticed that a lot of YA won’t touch the subject unless that’s the entire plot line. It’s a controversial topic but it must be talked about.

I obviously share a first name with the protagonist and to me that was important. I was constantly holding her up to very high standards. You see, I haven’t liked any of the protagonists named Jessie that I’ve read about in the past because I hold them to the highest standards. I need to be able to relate to them and generally like them. I assume that’s how it is with anyone who shares a name with a protagonist. I am happy to say she lived up to my standards. She is Jessie approved.

Overall, although I was unimpressed by the ending, I would definitely suggest giving this one a read.

This thriller of a YA romance unfolds through a mix of flashbacks and present day moments during the search for a missing teen boy. It is told through "letters" that Jessie is writing to her boyfriend, Chris, who is missing. They are about to graduate from a high school and were on a week long "break" initiated by Jessie - and not wanted by Chris. The author pieces out info about each character so that I kept changing my mind about what happened to Chris - Was he taken or killed by the town bullies who didn't like that a new black kid stole their shot at a college sports scholarship? Did he run away on his own in his anger at Jessie? Is he hurt and lost in the woods? I liked the action and the mystery of the plot, but I found the letter writing technique took me longer to get invested in the characters and all of their back stories. I'd recommend it to teens who like "sad" books with intrigue and relationship drama.

3.5

This book is a heavy one so be warned going into it. The author brought in some rough topics such as mental health and racism.

The story focuses on the main character Jessie who is writing journal entries to her boyfriend Chris who has gone missing. I enjoyed this book and coming to the conclusion I had to hold back the tears.

I believe the downfall of the book was some parts dragging while others were to short. I was into the book and wanted to see how everything unraveled, however, it wasn’t a book that was hard to put down.

Thank you Netgalley and the publishers for my copy in exchange for an honest review.

Although the title foreshadows that this will not be a romantic story, I went into this novel expecting a contemporary romance - but it hit so much harder than that. There are so many important themes covered in this novel, including but not limited to; racism, mental disorders, family dynamic, and friendship. I felt as though each of these was dealt with head-on and compassionately, however at times I felt that it was taking over the overall suspense of the novel.

Overall, I thought this was a very powerful, painful, and thought-provoking read. I felt Jessie’s pain, and her manic episodes wondering what happened to Chris, and she brought so much life and energy (both positive and negative) into her letters. I was on the edge of my seat, and couldn’t put this novel down until I knew what happened. It is such a realistic story that I think is able to reach all reader’s through it’s biggest question of “what could I have done differently?”

THIS. BOOK. IS. AMAZING. Not only did this book have me on the edge of my seat and car seat, but I stayed up so long. The author also put in her notes that she also experienced the same thing as Jessie, the main character, went through and it touched my heart. The author also handled suicide/police investigations very seriously. I myself never had to deal with the police in a situation like this but it did make me upset and made me realize how once you turn 18 everything is different. I can relate this to THE HATE U GIVE by Angie Thomas because it does deal with racism. If you loved that, I highly recommend this book.

The cover of this book is honestly so beautiful. And fitting too. And just from reading the premise, I knew this book would be a heart-breaker. The story is written like a letter, from Jessie to Chris. A week before graduation, Jessie told Chris they should go on a break, to "get some perspective" on their future. But then, Chris disappears, and Jessie remembers the three boys from the rival high school that beat Chris up three weeks ago. She's determined to prove that they had something to do with Chris' disappearance. But Chris is one of the black kids where they live, and people refuse to believe that his skin color could be part of the story. And yet, Jessie is also missing pieces - and the truth is not too easy to process.

I love the plot. A lot. I liked the amount of diversity in social issues that were addressed: racism, mental illness, and class imbalance all played a part in this story, and I felt like the intersectionality of these different issues really reflected the real world in a much more realistic manner. I'm not too sure what I feel about the ending, to be honest, as the story went in a direction I expected but didn't like too much.

I felt like some of the side characters could have been developed more, as some of them seemed to just be there to progress the plot forwards by providing information or adding to Jessie's emotional conflict. In fact, though we never saw much of Chris, I felt like I learned about his personality and his struggles simply through context and Jessie's memories; therefore, he was my probably my favorite character just because he was so complex. Because I liked him so much, I felt myself becoming more and more involved in the search for Chris.

I didn't have a problem with the writing style and how a lot of it used "you", as in Chris. I did get a little tired of lengthy narrations and found myself skimming. Still, there were some really beautiful lines that are testimonies to how great of a writer Kim Purecll is.

Overall, I'd still definitely recommend this to people to read, as I feel like it addresses a lot of important issues in today's society in a very extreme and eye-0pening way. Either way, I feel like this is a story that'll leave you thinking and maybe even shedding a few tears.

Jessie is dreading graduation and all of the decisions that will need to be made. This is why she tells her boyfriend, Chris, that they need to take a one week break from their relationship. She doesn’t want a break up … just a break. Then Chris disappears and she begins questioning all of the things she thought she knew about him. Is he dead or alive? Did he willing leave their small town or is there a murderer in their midst?

This Is Not a Love Letter is a stand-alone mystery written in the form of a series of letters. Every week, Chris had written Jessie a love letter. Now, Jessie is using this same outlet to let Christ know how she feels and what is going on around her. Readers will feel like they are helping Jessie process her fears and guilt as she begins to unravel the truth behind Chris’s disappearance. A good read but not a satisfactory ending.

To keep both her heart and her mind from shattering, after Chris vanished, Jessie kept a running letter to him in her mind and in her heart. She told of her secrets, times they shared, emotions they shared and what she has been left with since he disappeared.

THIS IS NOT A LOVE LETTER is a labor of love, of need, a declarations of truths and emotions, hopes, fears and the guilt a seventeen-year-old girl feels for “not knowing.” It is Jessie’s way to find answers, to feel connected to Chris, to hang on to the hope that their love will bring him home. It is also her punishment, her catharsis and her own way of clarifying who they were and what they had. It is her way of responding to the love letters Chris gave her every day.

Kim Purcell has written a powerful story of loss and confusion and pain. She has taken an interracial teenage love story and made it all about the truths of small-minded intolerance, big-hearted acceptance and how love is colorblind. You will be drawn into their story, their relationship, Jessie’s secrets and finally into the secrets Chris withheld.

Beautiful, dark and emotionally gripping, Kim Purcell has penned a tale of coming of age and clarity, all while the reality of life continued in search of the boy with a bright future who went out running one night and never returned. If this isn't a love letter, nothing is...truly a shining gem that should be read by all ages.

I received a complimentary ARC edition from Disney-Hyperion.

Publisher: Disney Hyperion (January 30, 2018)
Publication Date: January 30, 2018
Genre: YA Fiction |
Print Length: 368 pages
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This book got to me. I was bawling my eyes out because the book dealt with depression and racism. These topics are important to deal with, and i found the story hard to read because i felt Jessie's emotions. I'm glad to have read such a book and get these feelings from the story.

I loved this book. I liked the unique format of Jessie writing a letter to her missing boyfriend. I liked the way flashbacks were used to fill in missing spots. But I mostly liked getting so deep into Jessie’s thoughts and emotions. There were a few things that drove it down to a four star for me but they are definite spoilers.

Did not finish. :(
I'm sorry, I did not finish this book. The amount of vulgar language in the book makes it just not for me. I was so intrigued by the mystery, by the diversity in the book and the way the author was handling a racially charged relationship. Loved all that, and if not for the language I would have loved to continue. Thank you for the opportunity!

Rating: 2.5 out of 5

I wanted to love this and there were definitely parts that I did love, but there was something that didn’t fully connect for me. I read The Female of the Species by Mandy McGinnis and in some ways this reminded me of that, but I think the execution wasn’t quite as on point here. They are particularly similar in the idea of ‘violence begets violence’ being a major theme, but something felt off to me.

Some of my issue may have been that I had a hard time connecting with Jessie. In some of the flashbacks of her relationship with Chris it felt less like he suffered from depression and it came off as more of an abusive/manipulative relationship. Jessie talks about his jealousy, particularly the last couple months and a few of their conversations have manipulative language in them. I wish I’d gotten a view of Chris from outside Jessie’s mind, but the book is told first person in ongoing journal entries to Chris detailing what has happened while he’s been gone. Chris seemed a little too perfect and I think a part of that was Jessie’s rosy tinted view of him. We see some of his flaws by the end of the book such as his depression and the struggle to ignore and hide it, but I felt like even that could have been explored even further.

I even wanted Dave Johnson as a character to be explored more fully. Dave is billed as the jealous and racist team mate of Chris and has more than enough motive and desire to get Chris out of the way of his dreams, so naturally he is a suspect in his disappearance. I felt like we got a fairly one dimensional view of Dave. We are given the “evil” side of him and yet get flashes of a better side, such as a doting uncle. It would have been more interesting to see a more layered view of him as people are rarely all evil. Now, Dave does some really awful and inexcusable things, and he devolves further into the “villain” role and I would have liked to see some guilt or torment over his role in things.

One character I liked and wish had gotten a slightly bigger role was Josh. We get glimpses of Josh, but even he and Jessie don’t talk or bond as much as I wanted them to. We never get to know Josh as a person more than left-behind-best-friend of Chris. They did form a friendship by the end, but I was looking for a little more of that.

I did find the topic of hoarding particularly interesting. It was fascinating to see how it affected Jessie from a young age to the brink of adulthood. One particularly heartbreaking passage dealt with the fear of anyone finding out and Jessie being taken away from her mother so no one could ever see their home or know what was happening. That's quite the burden to put on a child.

This one definitely gave me a lot of think about, but in the end I felt a little underwhelmed. I think I wanted a different conversation about mental illness, so this might be more of a personal preference than anything else.

This is Not a Love Letter is a raw, compelling story. It is part mystery, part diary, part social commentary and part honest reflection on teen relationships and friendships. The book grabs readers from the beginning and keeps you engaged until the very last page. Jessie and Chris are in love but are also on a break - just for one week - as they prepare to finish high school and figure out what comes next in their lives. When Chris goes missing, the town and the local police believe he simply ran away but Jessie fears that something bad happened. The pacing of the search of Chris and its effect on Jessie, their friends and the town is very well written. The book also touches on many current social issues including mental health, family dysfunction and racism. A great read - for teens and adults.

Written in the style of a letter to her boyfriend (not her ex, they were just on a break) this book follows the days following the disappearance of Chris

There is a hint of mystery, racial tensions, and confusion about what really happened working its way through this story, and while I found it interesting and entertaining I didn't feel like it was a new or different story. While reading I found myself thinking of similar stories I had read and nothing caught me by surprise.

This was a good read, but not essential or groundbreaking.

Easily in my Top 3 books read in 2017.
Thank you. Thank you for writing this book. It was beautifully told, in a paper airplane style letter, from Jessie our protagonist to her boyfriend Chris.
Jessie and Chris are the only interracial couple, because Chris is the only African American male in their small town. After an argument that leaves the couple on a week long break, Chris goes missing after going on a jog. The story slowly unfolds amidst racist comments, derogatory phone calls, close knit friendships, family members with mental illness, and the unraveling of Chris' disappearance.
The way this book is written, i was instantly transported into being able to feel the way Jessie feels. It was easy to feel the desperation in her being. I was Jessie. Beautifully told. My heart will never recover.

The writing in this book is superb--from the first pages, instead of telling you the story in some over-the-top, grab-your-attention way, the author drops you in the middle of the action. Jessie's boyfriend Chris has gone missing, and we follow her like a fly on the wall in the hours that follow: in the chaos, the finger-pointing, the immediate sense that everyone has something to hide.

The story delves deep into teen drama in a way that is very accurate: the harassment of a black boy in a predominantly white town, the girl backstabbing, the complexity of teen relationships. Jessie feels guilty in a way we can all relate too, as she looks back at her relationship with Chris and what she might've done different. The love letter angle didn't do much for me, but I could see teen readers enjoying it.

In the end, the book delves deep into mental illness in a very teen-centric way--somewhat dramatically, but I think very appropriately so considering how the story ends. I spend a lot of time with teens who deal with mental illness, and I'd highly recommend this book to anyone dealing with this type of tragedy, which is difficult to understand.

This is Not a Love Letter by Kim Purcell brings out many emotions, and I'm not quite sure how I feel about it all yet. Not entirely anyway. I was impatient through the beginning. The story is told from inside the head of Jessie. It's a running monologue of everything she is saying, doing, and feeling. This is good and bad, as it became very tedious at times, but provided much needed info and insight.

I began to see Jessie's mental ramblings as something that could be cathartic to her as a person, all of us readers, and maybe even the writer herself. Jesse is telling Chris everything. Everything she hasn't told him up until now that she feels he should know. Apologies, confessions, explanations, stories, etc. She says it's not a love letter. Personally, I think she's in denial about that. To me, whether she's actually writing it or talking it all out in her head, a love letter of sorts is exactly what it felt like. I wondered if maybe that was the author's purpose for writing such a story, because that kind of catharsis makes complete sense, especially when you don't know if you're ever going to see the person again. It's freeing and healing.

The second half and, most importantly, the ending was very well done. I grew very attached to Jessie, and Chris, and many of the other characters. I was rooting for them. By the end, I was crying so hard, my husband got concerned. I have to say, with everything we knew and didn't know through the progression of this story, I was still expecting a different ending. "Hoping" for a different ending would be the better word, I think. When you read this, have a box of tissues handy.