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I really enjoyed this book. COLOR ME IN is something of a meditation on multi-racial identity, made all the more complicated by the intersections of religion and class. I thought Diaz did an excellent job of showing Naveah's struggles to make sense of her own identity in relation to the different pieces of her life, especially in light of the way these pieces begin to feel more and more fractured for Naveah. Her growth over the course of the book is clear and compelling. And no spoilers, but there is a scene toward the end of the book that takes place in Naveah's grandfather's church that I LOVED and that really makes me want to see this book made into a movie, because it could be pretty visually stunning.
Color Me In is a powerful coming-of-age story that explores family, friendship, and love, as well as race, religion, and identity. Nevaeh struggles to feel comfortable in her own skin and with her dual heritages, Jewish and Black, which isn't helped by the fact that her parents are separated. Despite her struggles with fitting in, especially with the Black community, she also has a lot of privilege as someone who is white-passing, and she is forced to confront and acknowledge that privilege. Exploring and finding herself and her voice is a messy journey and along the way she inadvertently pushes away her best friend and builds a relationship on lies born from fear and insecurity. Ultimately, she has to own up to her mistakes and set herself straight before she can move forward. This story masterfully weaves together many relationships and subplots and concludes with a powerful and pitch-perfect finale. The romance felt like the weakest link, but the rest of the story was executed well.
Color Me In is a deeply moving and powerful book that spoke to some of the deepest parts of me. The book follows Nevaeh Levitz, a biracial Black and Jewish girl, navigating her parents' difficult divorce, race and white-passing, religion, a new neighborhood, family dynamics, and more. Nevaeh and I are in many ways very different, but in other ways we are similar. I'm from a fairly affluent suburban town outside of NYC, and I temporarily moved to NYC for college. I often feel like I don't fit in and am not "enough" for my Asian/Taiwanese-Chinese side nor for my Brazilian side.
Reading the book, you can tell that this comes from a deeply personal place for Natasha Díaz. The internal struggles Nevaeh goes through are so visceral, so real, so accurate, and so nuanced. For anyone who has struggled with their mixed identity, Color Me In speaks to that experience so well, even if you don't connect to the specific identities in the book. I don't want to say too much, in part because it's hard to put into words the way I feel about this (in the best way) and because I don't want to give too much away. If you want to understand what it's like for some of us who have very different, sometimes conflicting backgrounds, I think the book does it well. My heart swells every time I think about the representation here and how important it is, not only for those of us who can relate to it but also for the readers who cannot and get a peek into our world. The book leaves me feeling so seen and reminds us that we are enough with every part of ourselves. I'm at the point in my life and journey and healing where I still have moments of feeling not-enough, and I often still don't feel like I fit exactly into any space, but I am also at peace with it and know that I truly am enough, but I think for readers like me who aren't at that point yet, Color Me In will reach deep down and help them feel it in their heart and their core. This book is powerful and beautiful and soft and proud, through and through.
Additionally, Color Me In handles white-passing privilege and race extremely well. I was fascinated by the different personalities in the book, particularly Jordan, Nevaeh's activist cousin. Nevaeh and Jordan clash often for lots of reasons, a major one being Nevaeh's passing privilege and her lack of awareness around that. Díaz handles this with grace and nuance and love, and I am grateful to how this was explored on page, especially as Nevaeh made mistakes, grew, and learned to do better but in her own way. She made mistakes and owned up to them when she was held accountable. This process touched upon fragility, but it also beautifully handled redemption, never condemning Nevaeh--even if other characters do. Nevaeh makes mistakes, suffers the consequences, and she takes action to hold herself accountable for the pain she caused, intentionally or not. Whatever your personal politics, the book shows growth and what it means to use one's privilege to uplift. I was worried that the book would frame Jordan as being too "woke" or leftist or whatever other words you want to use, but she was not only balanced out and treated with the same care as Nevaeh and Janae (another one of Nevaeh's cousin) and Rabbi Sarah and Anita (Nevaeh's aunt) and all the other characters, and in the end, both Nevaeh and Jordan respected one another and opened up to one another. This transformation was beautifully done and spectacularly handled the "political" aspect involved.
As I was nearing the end of the book, I began to think about the structure of the plot of the book. It tends to focus for several chapters on one conflict or one major aspect of Nevaeh's life before finally switching back to something else Nevaeh is going through. At first, I thought that this was maybe a negative thing, and I could see readers who prefer plot-heavy books being disappointed. The book doesn't really have that huge climax moment but rather contains a more roller-coaster like plot, with several highs. In that way, the book is neither slow nor fast paced but something in between. I think that kind of lull works perfectly with this book and its aims, and I also think it's something that's true to life. The different plots/conflicts are inter-related and none fully over-power the other, and I think it's really well-balanced. The romance was kind of insta-love-y, and I don't even really feel like we saw any true connection or fully got to see their relationship, but I also think that it's not even close to the most important aspect or relationship in the story and so it didn't bother me as much.
Instead, friendship and family are the heart of Color Me In, and rightfully so, given the content and soul of the book. From Nevaeh's relationship to her parents and her changing family situation, to Rabbi Sarah's own struggles, to Nevaeh's relationship to her cousins and her aunt, to Nevaeh's close friendship with Stevie, to Nevaeh dealing with bullies, to Nevaeh's relationship with herself, and to Nevaeh's relationship to her community and those within it. There's so much depth and breadth, and I actually also think the book quietly says quite a bit about setting up and maintaining boundaries and letting go of toxic people and those who can't or won't change. There's a lot that's perhaps unresolved at the end--or that people may have trouble/issue with, but I think real life, especially for a teen is like that--messy and sometimes imperfect.
If you couldn't tell already, I am in love with this book and all that it manages to do. I think it takes a lot of lessons and messages that activists and organizers and scholars talk about, teach about, and act on and puts it into a fictional story that is accessible and will reach many. What you take away from it is what effort you put in to really think about and internalize what Color Me In is trying to say. Díaz has created what I imagine is a book of her heart and therefore the book of hearts like hers. It's the kind of book that I think you can continue to get more out of with every time that you read it. I can't recommend this book enough, and I hope that you'll pick it up to read.
Color Me In by Natasha Diaz is such an important book and I believe everyone should read it to get a better understanding of what it is like to live in a world as mixed race teenager. Diaz painted such a beautiful picture and I am so thankful to have read this book. Thank you Netgalley for providing me with an advanced copy.
I agree with Nic Stone - this book is absolutely outstanding! It deals with so many big issues past just growing up and falling in love. There is familial bonds being tested, there’s racial and religious intolerance, all on top of a kid just trying to figure out who they are.
A beautiful and lyrical tale that I truthfully was not expecting. I adore the cover and the title but more than that I couldn't put this book down. I was in love with this. My rating might be 4 stars but please note I would give it another half if I could!!
This book did a great job of showing the struggle of trying to reconcile two identities within oneself. I enjoyed the look at Nevaeh's mother's journal as well. Great book!
This was soooo good! Being a person of mixed race myself, I really enjoyed the representation in this. I love how it gave some light to some of the internal conflict one has when being brought up with two different cultures and both races being completely opposite. I liked the friendships and the family used in this story as well. Definitely recommend for everyone to read!
Whenever I first received this book I received it as an arc copy from Netgalley. However I never got around to actually reading it until this month. I really loved the main character Nevaeh and how religion played a minor part in the plot of the story. She had to come to terms with her parents separating and I feel like that helped her become a well rounded character in the end. Overall I really enjoyed this book and I feel like I will read her other works as they are published as well.
Thank you NetGalley and the publisher for giving me an eARC of this book in exchange for an honest review. The things I liked most about this book are the cover and title because it makes you get a glimpse into the main problem centered in book right away. I also loved the character development and how nothing was glossed over. The family struggles, the racial struggles, all of it felt very real and I appreciated the rawness of this story. It broke my heart and I hope this book is a mirror to those who need to hear that they belong and a window for those that need to see what other's face in our world today, simply because of the color of their skin.
If my memory serves me right, Color Me In in the first book with a biracial MC written by a biracial author I have ever read. And the fact that this was written by someone who knows what they're talking about SHOWS, nothing quite like living the biracial experience to get it right on page. And although I am not white passing so I did not relate to a lot of the things going down in the book, some of the feelings mirrored mine so perfectly that I couldn't help but feel seen in a way.
Although I went in expecting this to be about a biracial girl who doesn't quite fit in with either one of her communities, in many ways, it was different from what I expected. But not in a bad way. Navaeh is the daughter of a Jewish man and a Black woman, who is very white passing, getting the classic and extremely racist question of whether her mom is her babysitter, her mom getting suspicious looks whenever she takes her out, etc... really pleasant Black experience (not 🙃). This book not only tackled her experience as a biracial person struggling to belong but also her white passing privilege head on, which I really appreciated. I was scared this would turn into a one-woman pity party that didn't look at the other side of coin.
And although at first she got on my nerves because of how focused she was on her own struggles that she failed to see and acknowledge that she still held a HUGE amount of privilege and that people had it harder with you know...system racism and oppression. But as the book went on, she underwent character development and I ended up really liking how her story was handled and who she becomes by the time I flipped to the last page.
One thing that made my reading experience less enjoyable than it could have been is how...two dimensional the side characters were. The author chose one characteristic for each one of them and used it to build their whole personality around. For example: Her little cousin is a chubby little boy and most times he was mentioned or in page, it was something related to his love for food. Then her older dark-skinned cousin's only purpose in the novel was to call her out on her privilege and whenever she went out of her line. He loves food, she loves a good call-out, okay I get it but what else is there to them? The only two characters I felt were well crafted are the MC and her love interest. Then another instance of poor character development is her mom, she was really depressed after her parents got divorced, barely getting out of bed, speaking to anyone and always crying, but after one session of therapy, she was up and waltzing around the house. What?
Okay, but to finish this review on a positive note, as I was reading, this actually beautifully written book, I stumbled across this quote that I just had to keep reading over and over and over again because of how true it rang with me and how much I loved it, so I want to share it:
"I hope one day she'll allow herself to know what it feels like to feel safe and loved. I hope that one day she finds arms she can crumble into, even if they're her own"
I switched between the eARC and audio recordings of this book in order to finish it more quickly and utilize my commute time. I read this book in just over a day. It flowed quickly and the topic was always fresh and interesting. I especially enjoyed the Jewish aspect of Neveah's identity. Many of my students will identify with the feeling of being caught between two cultures as well as seeing their parents' relationship crumble.
It took the entire first half of the book for characters to start to solidify. Before that point it was confusing to keep the minor characters' straight.
I found ‘Color Me In’ as a thought-provoking story about Neveah Levitz, a 16 year old girl having to live through the trauma of divorce and leaving her childhood home in White Plains. Neveah moves to Harlem with her mother. Harlem was her mother’s childhood home, yet Neveah struggles to identify with her close-yet-distant extended family and cousins in this new environment. Being a bi-racial young woman, Neveah struggles to re-discover her own identity through a close-knit community, and finding her own voice through the written word.
‘Color Me In’ is a very intense story, as it handles the issues of race and culture through the eyes of someone struggling to understand her own place in society. The story itself is written in lovely prose as well. If you haven’t picked up your copy of ‘Color Me In’ yet, you definitely should. You won’t be disappointed!
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I wanted so much from this title and there was so much that could have been! It just didn't grab me and hold me in, and if it did that for me, I can't recommend it for my students.
>YESSSS
>Immersive
>Unique POV & voice
>Didn’t want to put it down & couldn’t stop thinking of it
>Love Nevaeh and her straight boy best friend.
>It’s about family, found family, and community
>While both sides of her family is religious, it’s not about religion.
>There’s no ”saving her soul” tug of war fight going on between the different religions
>Typical young love, realistically rendered
>Former childhood friend turned enemy
>Mother suffering through a depressive episode
>Sexual assault journaled about
>Love how the mother’s journal was resolved
>Rabbi that I surprisingly liked
>The mini Rabbi in training is adorable
>Colorism illustrated and handled well, especially re: burdens on black women
>All the women are amazing in their own ways
>As are Nevaeh’s uncle and grandfather
>That bat mitzvah!!!!
>There are a lot of elements that others have made whole books out of alone, and they’re juggled beautifully. Everything was given the proper space or weight. Kids have a lot to contend with these days and Nevaeh gets overwhelmed but the narrative doesn’t.
>Perfect for fans of Nicole Yoon, Elizabeth Acevedo’s work, especially The Poet X,
>There are several other 2019 books that sound like perfect comps too, but I haven’t read them yet, like: The Revolution of Birdie Randolph, Full Disclosure, Let Me Hear a Rhyme, This Time Will Be Different, I Wanna Be Where You ARe.
Color Me In took me so long to read, but it was definetely an experience!
I loved the message of this book, which was admittedly something I've never given much thought to - the everyday struggles of white-passing people of color. Color Me In has such a strong message about race that every resader can learn something from, even if they're educated already.
The main theme wasn't just race; family, bullying, and friendship are also subjects touched on in this novel. I loved Neveah's family members and how they all interacted with each other (except for one character, who was totally dislikable - but that was on purpose). In fact, every character, whether major or minor to the story, had some kind of interesting and realisticly-portrayed relationship with Nevaeh.
The climax of the story, espeically the part with Mr. Johnson's outburst, seemed a little outlandish to me - though I understand that people do actually talk like that sometimes. Maybe. But the climax was satisfying, the ending was satisfying - actually, all of the plot was tied together well at the end.
I really liked Color Me In. It makes me want to read more books about race and social issues such as racism.
Navaeh Levitz is part white Jewish and part black and has never felt like a whole person. As a white-passing biracial child, she has just always accepted that she doesn't fit in anywhere. When her parents' marriage unravels, Navaeh is forced into the depths of both sides of her identity and can either choose to continue battling to be accepted or all embrace all the magic in her heritage.
If you like books by Angie Thomas or Elizabeth Acevedo, then you should read this book. I know the readalikes are usually put at the end of a review but I thought I'd get them out of the way here.
Color Me In is a character-focused novel truly written for a Young Adult demographic. The conflicting inner-dialogue, the friendships, the high-school drama and the unrelenting need to fit in left me cringing and wanting to shake some sense in Navaeh. This book touches on identity, racial tension, religion, friendship, love and family and a part of me stopped and wondered if there was too much being included but actually no, I don't think there is. All these themes and ideas are interwoven with one another to create the whole. If you think about it, all the other things are interwoven to create our identities and often times it's not a conclusion we reach but a lesson we are constantly learning. I think Diaz has illustrated that well.
I'm a hopeless optimistic so I always want even the worst characters to have a redemptive arc and that doesn't always happen in this book but then it doesn't always happen in real life. However, many of the 'bad' characters, like Samuel and Abby, lacked the multidimensions woven into the 'good' characters such as Stevie and Jordan.
But the MVP and the character that makes this book an ultimate winner for me is Navaeh. Which is only right as she is the protagonist. Navaeh is loosely based on Diaz and this is clear in her character development. I both want to shake her and hug her. She is selfish and careless and self-involved but which teenager isn't? (How many adults aren't like that either?) But she grows, she changes, she finds her magic.
I hope this is a book that many teenagers out there read and are inspired to find their magic.
“People are always going to want to split you into pieces so they can feel more comfortable with who you are, and I’m sorry no one ever sat you down to prepare you for that.”
Oh my sweet baby Nevaeh. How much do I want to pull you from these pages and just give you a hug??? Gah! I love love loved this story so much!!!
This is so much more than a coming of age story. This is the kind of book where Big Things are discussed. The kind with capital letters. Nevaeh is biracial, half black, half Jewish. Even though she’s never felt like she’s fully belonged anywhere, she had her parents. And that was enough. Until she came home from school with her belongings in boxes and finds herself living with her estranged mother’s side of the family. With little explanation.
What follows is the story of Nevaeh picking up the pieces, trying to find a story that makes sense in the jumbled world she finds herself in. It’s about finding herself, but this is also about finding her place in the world.
I love that her parents are very real people too. While Nevaeh is trying to find who she is, she also discovers that her parents aren’t exactly what she thought either. I feel like this is such an important aspect of growing up that doesn’t always get looked at. Or brought up. Our parents are people, and people generally have complex, complicated lives with secrets and past choices and mistakes they regret. It doesn’t make them bad, it makes them human. And I loved how this was woven into Nevaeh’s story.
“It’s odd how sometimes these comments bother me, and how at other times I can’t help but chuckle at the absurdity. I guess I’m just used to never being enough of anything.”
The writing is poetic and since Nevaeh is an actual writer, her own poetry is woven in, making this novel sing with lyrical prose. It’s gorgeous! Nevaeh’s mother also gets a voice, as her journal entries are included, and I adore how this not only gives an added dimension to her character, but also makes the reader feel like we truly are on this journey of discovery with Nevaeh. It’s beautifully done and these intricate layers are what makes this book stand out.
Rich with meaning, delicious writing, and characters that simply burst off the pages, Color Me In is a spectacular debut that leaves me wanting more. This is definitely a book contemporary YA fans will not want to miss!
Thank you Rockstar Book Tours and Delacourte Press for including me on this tour and sending me a copy to review.
This is Natasha Diaz debut YA book and I loved it! We meet Nevaeh, we learn that her parents are split up and this leads to Nevaeh getting reconnect with her mothers' side of the family. I enjoyed the two different worlds, her mother's side, who is African American and her father who is Jewish. I enjoy the mashup of both of these cultures. This book covers topics of racism, poverty, assault and mental health. This book is very character-driven. There are also family secrets, drama, and choices that have to be made. Diaz's writing is very pretty, there is also poetry from Nevaeh's points of view. I like how she uses it to express herself and grows as a character. My favorite part of this book is how she learns to speak up for herself. Not only is Diaz's writing pretty but she has this skill of covering so many sensitive topics without going over or too pushy. It's remarkable! These pages are powerful, a young girl of color who becomes bold in her biracial heritage roots!
(This review ran in Double the Books Magazine issue Aug)
I've added this book to the list of books for my biracial nieces and nephews and my future children.
The perspective of growing up in America as a biracial person is so needed and I'm glad this book exists. It's crucial that we continue to write, read, and share stories from different perspectives to create a more inclusive and inviting society.