"Someday, Someday" ist der dritte Band der "Only Love"-Reihe und kann unabhängig von den anderen Teilen gelesen werden. Die Geschichte wird abwechselnd aus den Perspektiven von Max und Silas erzählt.

Max beginnt, nachdem er seine Sucht besiegt und sein Leben auf der Straße hinter sich gelassen hat, einen neuen Job in Seattle als Pfleger für einen reichen Unternehmer. Ich mochte Max vom ersten Augenblick an sehr, weil er jedem freundlich und offen begegnet und zugleich für sich selbst und seine Werte einsteht. Er hat viel ertragen müssen und hat noch mit den Folgen zu kämpfen, dennoch ist er gestärkt daraus hervor gegangen und versucht, den Menschen in seinem Umfeld mit Empathie zur Seite zu stehen.
Silas erscheint als das komplette Gegenteil, kalt und abweisend und ständig dabei, seine Angestellten zu kritisieren. Wie Max erkennt die lesende Person jedoch recht schnell, dass sich hinter dieser Fassade ein gebrochener Mensch versteckt, der von Unsicherheit und Selbsthass geplagt ist und sich verzweifelt nach emotionaler Nähe sehnt.

Diese Geschichte hat mir mehrfach das Herz gebrochen, mich tief erschüttert und bewegt. Ich mochte die Feinfühligkeit von Max, die Zerbrechlichkeit von Silas, wie sie sich beide nach einander sehnen und doch Angst davor haben, dem Anderen ihr Herz anzuvertrauen. Ich mochte die langsame Annäherung, wie sie sich mit zwei Schritten vor und einem zurück immer weiter aufeinander zu bewegen und sich dabei die Zeit nehmen, welche diese Protagonisten aufgrund ihrer Vergangenheit brauchen. Es war so wunderschön, die Gespräche und Berührungen der beiden zu erleben. Ich mochte die Entwicklung von Silas im Verlauf der Handlung und wie traumatische Erlebnisse hier sensibel dargestellt und aufgearbeitet wurden. Auch die Beziehung von Silas zu seinem Bruder war wunderschön und herzerwärmend.

Selten habe ich mich so wohl in einer Geschichte gefühlt, obwohl es immer wieder sehr traurige Momente gab und die Geschichte aufgrund ihrer Themen definitiv schwere Kost ist. Dennoch bin ich nur so durch die Seiten geflogen und war traurig, als ich mich von Max und Silas verabschieden musste. Auch der Epilog, der mir bei Emma Scott oft zu kitschig ist, hat hier gut funktioniert und der Geschichte ein rundes Ende gegeben.

Fazit:
Eine emotional sehr ergreifende, zugleich traurige und wunderschöne Gay Romance, die in mir noch lange nachwirken wird. Eines meiner Highlights dieses Jahr und absolut empfehlenswert!


In English:

"Someday, Someday" is the third volume in the "Only Love" series and can be read independently of the other parts. The story is told alternately from the perspectives of Max and Silas.

After conquering his addiction and leaving his life on the streets behind, Max starts a new job in Seattle as a carer for a wealthy entrepreneur. I really liked Max from the first moment because he was friendly and open to everyone and at the same time stood up for himself and his values. He has had to endure a lot and is still struggling with the consequences, but he has come out of it stronger and tries to support the people around him with empathy.
Silas appears to be the complete opposite, cold and distant and constantly criticizing his employees. However, like Max, the person reading quickly realizes that behind this facade lies a broken person who is plagued by insecurity and self-hatred and desperately longs for emotional closeness.

This story broke my heart several times, shocked and moved me deeply. I liked the sensitivity of Max, the fragility of Silas, how they both long for each other and yet are afraid to trust the other with their hearts. I liked the slow approach, how they move closer and closer to each other with two steps forward and one step back, taking the time that these protagonists need because of their past. It was so beautiful to experience the conversations and touches between the two of them. I liked the development of Silas over the course of the plot and how traumatic experiences were sensitively portrayed and processed. Silas' relationship with his brother was also beautiful and heartwarming.

Rarely have I felt so comfortable in a story, although there were always very sad moments and the story is definitely heavy stuff because of its themes. Nevertheless, I just flew through the pages and was sad when I had to say goodbye to Max and Silas. The epilogue, which is often too cheesy for me with Emma Scott, also worked well here and gave the story a well-rounded ending.

Conclusion:
An emotionally very moving, at the same time sad and beautiful gay romance that will have an impact on me for a long time. One of my highlights this year and absolutely recommended!

It was interesting, sometimes it was a bit hard to follow because it was alot of babbling and i was a little bored here and there.

Audiobook Review:
Overall – 5
Performance – 5
Story – 5

I loved this audiobook!

I am so sorry that it took me so long to read/listen to this book. I received a copy from NetGalley for review but it slipped through the cracks and I never read it. I recently realized that I had also purchased a copy of the audiobook so I bumped it up on my reading list and finally listened to it. I loved it so much and really wish I hadn’t waited so long to listen to it.

It’s not often that listening to an audiobook will make me bawl like a baby but this one did and I loved every minute of it. There were so many hard things in this story that the two MCs had to deal with. The emotion that both audio performers injected into their voices just about did me in.

The blurb is excellent but deals mostly with the trauma that Max went through. I’m not going to spoil anything but I think the trauma that Silas was put through was at least as bad, if not worse. His story is the one that brought on the sobs.

I can’t say enough good things about this story and the excellent audio performances by Greg Tremblay and Zachary Johnson.

A review copy of the ebook was provided by the publisher via NetGalley but this did not influence my opinion or rating of the book.

4.5 Stars

Max Kaufman ran away from home as a teen, once his family made it clear that his sexuality would not be welcome or tolerated in their home. He spent years on the streets as a hooker and drug user, but met a man who helped him clean up and get enough education to be a nurse. He’s returned to his hometown of Seattle, Washington to reconnect with his roots. He’d worked in the ER before being recommended to a lucrative position as a private, live-in, caregiver to Edward March III, a billionaire pharmaceuticals CEO. It’s a tetchy assignment because he’s gay and Marsh is a vocal homophobe. Well, he’s a vocal a-hole, he’s got plenty of slurs to spread around his whole family, including his beautiful, dutiful son Silas who is running the company, and his eldest son, Eddie, who has Down’s Syndrome. Marsh is dying of MS and spiteful as all hell. But, he’s been that way a long, long time.

Silas March hates his father, but he hates himself, too. He was only ten when his loving and devoted mother died of a stroke, and whatever humanity his father had disappeared. With his heir, Eddie “compromised,” he took exceptional interest in Silas becoming his perfect replacement at the company. So, when he got the idea that Silas was gay he shipped the teen boy off to an abusive gay-conversion camp in Alaska. The damage was immediate and long-lasting; Silas has a deep aversion to touch, and has never had any intimacy–or even arousal since. He’s hired a woman, Faith< to act as his girlfriend and maintain the pretense that he’s a virile and functional heterosexual man to his father, even though he’s neither. Faith is a stalwart confidante, happy to accept the money and gifts Silas gives her–at least for now. But, Max is so deeply giving and so willing to help him, as well as Marsh and Eddie, well, the emotional bonds form nonetheless.

Silas knows that his company’s cash cow drug is an opioid painkiller that hooks people into dependency–he knows because he got hooked himself, when he was trying to find something to take away his pain and nightmares over Alaska. Knowing that Max is clean, and an NA sponsor, helps Silas confess to his past addiction, but also to develop a plan to remediate the opioid dependency his company has fostered. He’s going to be the CEO someday, and he doesn’t want his legacy to be one of profiteering from pain pill addictions and heroin overdoses. Of course, his manipulative father is holding the company hostage, insisting that Silas marry Faith before he signs over control. And then, he wants Silas to become a father, and then…and then…

So, yeah, it’s a big mess, especially once Silas begins to recognize that he and Max are more than friends, they are soulmates. And, well, Daddy Dearest has some more nasty surprises to hamstring Silas. Both Silas and Max are good men. They have deep family trauma, and they each work through it in methodical steps. Silas needs to outsmart not only his father, but also insiders in the company who’d love to capitalize on Marsh’s failing health and avarice. Max has to forgive his family to find closure that helps on his recovery journey. It’s hard, because they do not really see themselves as at fault for Max’s trauma–he could have chosen differently, right?

Silas and Max make choices that are the right ones for them in the moment, knowing it can hurt the other in that moment. Marsh likes Max, and trusts him implicitly, but his abuse escalates to the point that Max can’t take it any longer. And that means a forced separation is in order. Adding all the machinations going on at the company, Max has no guarantee that Silas will ever be able to be out, or love him completely. It could even lead to a relapse for either of them. It’s still tough to get through, especially while trusting that their life paths will converge eventually.

I loved this one. It’s definitely challenging and triggering, so please know there will be scenes of verbal abuse, and recollections of prostitution, domestic violence, conversion therapy situations and drug use.

One of the the things I'm grateful/thankful for this year, is Emma Scott and her truly amazing storytelling. This book is Max's long awaited story, who we were introduced to in "Forever Right Now" (another 5 Star read).
This is a m/m story. Some may not like/agree with that type of love story. Sadly, I used to be (past tense) one such reader. Since becoming an avid reader in 2014, I've become more open-minded/liberal in my reading choices. FSOG was the book that re-introduced me to my love of reading. Without that open-minded thinking, I would have missed out on so many great authors and books, especially, Emma.
Max & Silas each have such heart-breaking/ heart-wrenching backgrounds. Max had a short & abrupt family life, before living on his own. All that he needed to do to survive & come through the other side is truly heart-breaking and brave.
Max has such a huge heart & care-giving spirit. I fell in love with him after briefly meeting him in "Forever Right Now". I couldn't wait to learn more about him & read his story. This book was everything I hoped it would be and more.
Silas is truly a beautiful and broken soul. My heart continually broke for him, for all that he had to endure and the tragedies he suffered.
I loved everything about their story. How they meet, learning about their siblings, and catching up with their closest friends. Emma did a phenomenal job bringing both of their stories full circle.
This book is a love story, plain and simple. There is no need for labels, pre-conceived ideas, or thoughts. It is a very important book with a message that is truly needed at this time. Forgiveness and understanding. It also is so important because of the social issues talked about and dealt with also. It is a work of fiction. However, it feels like so much more to me.
I highly recommend this beautiful book about two broken souls and their well-fought fight for a much deserved HEA.
Emma Scott is truly a gifted & socially conscious storyteller. I applaud her for all of her dedication & hard work in telling such emotional & beautiful stories.
I said it before, in another review of one of her books, that I would read anything she writes. That statement is as true today, as it ever was. It might sound crazy, but I feel like a better, more socially conscious person after I read one of her books.
This wasn't my first m/m story, but it is definitely my favorite.

This book was definitely heartbreaking at times but worth the read. I loved Max and adored Eddie. While the story wasn't without it faults it still made me feel something.

I received an ARC of this book via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.

I loved the story!

I do not have much to say. Only that I loved the story and that it super connected me. I would love to see this story published here in Brazil.

After reading the blurb for this book, I felt like this story was right up my alley. However, although I enjoyed this story immensely, there were times where it became too preachy and disjointed. Now don't get me wrong, Emma Scott did a great job of emphasizing the different struggles the LGBTQ youth face, but there were some elements brought in that IMO weren't necessary to the development of the story and/or characters.

I loved Max. He was a strong, caring man who went through hell and back and came out stronger and determined to work on his sobriety and live his best life. His story broke my heart, but seeing him overcome those difficult times really upped my opinion of him. So when Silas came into the picture, I was a little weary of him. Emma Scott painted such a cold hearted persona on Silas that it took me a while to warm up to him and accept him as a worthy partner for Max.

So Silas. His story wasn't anything I hadn't read before, but there was something in Emma Scott's writing that made it darker. IDK, I can't explain it. But the way she brought it to the page made his story even more poignant for me. As these revelations came up, I felt myself warming up to Silas and hoping that he could come to a point in life where he would truly experience happiness.

As you can expect, this story was packed full of emotions from both characters with memorable interactions between Max and Silas that cemented their connection. I never had to question their chemistry since it jumped off the page from that very first encounter. But I did appreciate the few candid moments that were placed throughout the story. These two men had found each other at a stage in their lives where they needed to focus only on themselves to survive, so when they found themselves drawn to each other it became a chaotic mix of emotions, stolen moments and expectations. Silas and Max coming together and them constantly fighting their connection kept me glued to the story. I may have been weary of Silas being with Max, but in the end I was a goner and completely invested in their relationship.

All in all, an excellent read.

*4 Stars*

Copy kindly received via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

I always enjoy Emma Scott books, and this one was no different. This was actually my first MM book, and I really liked both main characters.

Silas and Max both have their own difficult pasts, and there is quite a lot to learn about both of them. Things that might be hard to read for some people. I thought it was a really interesting take on an MM book (thought as I said, its my first, so I could be wrong), and I liked getting to the bottom of everything and watching how these two dealt with things.

I really liked Eddie, and I'd love for him to get a book. I liked a lot of the secondary characters, but there were some I really really disliked as well.

An interesting tale of acceptance and growth.

Enjoyed this one, and would recommend.

Without a doubt, a 5-Star read! I totally stepped out of my box for this one....not my usual genre. But I put my full trust in Emma Scott (and her incredible writing skills) and my book friend, Robin, who gave me that push I needed!!

This book touched on the way society and even family treat something they just don't understand. To put it simply, love is love. Whether its between two men, two women, man and woman, etc., etc. I had the immediate feels in this book with Max and Silas. What an incredible story.

And the fact Emma Scott touches on the Opioid addiction across America was spot on. I know many who've suffered with kicking that addiction after surgery or a bad injury, and it sickens me to think these large corporations are not worried about the people involved, only worried about the money they put in their pocket.

Max was already out and turned away by his family at a young age. He ended up on the streets and was one of the lucky ones to have someone come along and actually help him. He pulled himself up and went back to school, becoming an ER nurse, but still not finding the one person who completed him. Enter Silas. A billionaire hottie struggling with his identity, especially after the way his Dad treated him.

Oh, and a special shout-out to Silas' brother, Eddie, who suffers from Asperger's. He was amazing and an incredible support for Silas! Loved his interaction with Max!

I highly recommend the book! READ IT!

An enjoyable read, but not one I would rave about.

The storyline was very predictable, and to be honest the jobs that both of the guys had at the end of the book were pretty unbelievable for someone of their age. This isn't to say that the writing wasn't good, the storyline had a good pace to it, and the characters were well drawn, it was just a bit of a standard story.

One thing I didn't understand was how Max's friends did not catch on to who he was "dating" when it was all across the newspapers - this didn't add up for me.

Overall an enjoyable, but predictable read.

When Max Kaufman’s parents found out he was gay, they kicked him out as a teen. Instead of graduating high school, Max turned to drugs and prostitution as he lived on the streets. He managed to get out with some help and he broke his addiction and graduated from nursing school. It’s been ten years since Max has seen his family, but he has just moved back to the area to try and rebuild what has been lost. Max also has a new job working as a private nurse for Edward Marsh, the wealthy CEO of one of the largest pharmaceutical companies, and Max will soon learn exactly what is going on behind the scenes of the company.

Silas Marsh is the son of Edward Marsh, a rich and powerful man. He has been told he will inherit his father’s business and his place as CEO, but his father keeps moving the goal posts. Silas has suffered a lot at the hands of his homophobic father, including being sent to a “conversion camp” that nearly killed him. The damage runs so deep, but Silas still tries to be the perfect son as he uncovers some of the less than ethical business practices going on in the company. Silas has kept his feelings locked down for years, but Max gets in. Silas knows he doesn’t deserve someone as good as Max, and while it kills him to push Max away, family expectations are high. But being with Max feels more right than anything else in his life and Silas will have to choose whether he can finally stand up to his father or lose Max for all time.

This is my first book by Emma Scott and from what I can see, it is also her first M/M romance. The book has two good characters in Silas and Max. They both have gone through a lot of trauma and both carry a lot of emotional scars. Max has tried to move on with getting off the streets and finding a job. Silas never fully came home from the conversion therapy his father sent him to and a lot of damage, both physical and emotional, has been done to him. His emotions are locked down and he is still trying to be the son his father wants, including becoming engaged to his friend Faith, as his father demands that he is married to a woman before Silas can be named CEO of the large pharmaceutical that bears their family name.

There is a tremendous amount going on in this book—maybe too much for how it all played out. The highlight is definitely the attraction and tension between Silas and Max. Max has no intention of getting his heart ripped out and wants to stay focused on his recovery and Silas can be barely glance in Max’s direction as so many eyes are always on him. But circumstances have them seeing each other often and while the chemistry is an important part of their relationship, they each know they can be better and feel safer with the other in their life.

Woven into their relationship are a lot of threads that build the foundation for the story. With Max, he is trying to be welcomed back into the family that kicked him out. Max also has an older brother and sister that left him out on the streets and Max has to do all the effort. I understood the message the author was sending with Max needing to forgive to move on for himself, but I needed so much more effort from his family and the way that storyline played out with his parents and siblings never sat right with me. Max was also helped off the streets by a policeman and that story was glossed over completely. Silas has even more going on between his father, the shady business dealings he uncovers in the pharmaceutical company, his fiancée (in name only as she knows what’s going on and is in it for the money), watching over his brother who has Asperger’s, and dealing with PTSD from conversion therapy. Some of the intended impact of their past wasn’t there for me as so much of it we were told in small pieces and not shown. By the end, some things were tied up better than others, and I did need more from some areas, and the parent storyline, on both sides, never settled for me even by the end of the book.

There were great moments between Max and Silas as their relationship progressed. It’s not easy for them to get together or be together, but there are romantic gestures and a life changing love for both of them. While some of the plotlines didn’t all pull together for me, focusing on Max and Silas together was the area I liked best.

This book was not for me. I swear it’s not the book’s fault, it was all on me. I dnf it half way through because I really don’t know how I feel about it. I couldn’t go through with it anymore. It was enjoyable at first but halfway through, I felt that it was taking too long for me to finish. It felt rather longer towards the end so I just stopped.

I DNF this book. I know people are going to boo me, but it was too slow and too sad for a beach read. I just could not get through it. The first chapter alone did me in.

Emotional, intimate, vivid, angsty, steamy, fun , romantic comes to mind when I think about this book.

Someday, Someday was a joy to read . It gave me all the feels.

Re-read: Yes
Recommend: Yes

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...try to let it go, live for right now

Emma Scott’s Someday, Someday is an absolutely stunning hurt/comfort romance. Both characters are so beautifully damaged, and need each other so desperately, it’s just perfect.

I’m amazed by Max’s ability to forgive the wrongs done to him by his family. To come back from what he went through, dedicate himself to helping others, and strive to find everything good in life, is inspirational.

And Silas, what a transformation! Not as far into his recovery as Max, we get to see this part of his life, and Ms. Scott does an amazing job with it. The flashbacks to his time in conversion therapy are chilling and incredibly emotional.

This is the first time I've read anything by Emma Scott and I was repeatedly impressed by how vividly she describes things. Expressions, emotions, the interior of a room… it doesn’t matter, her words are wonderful.

Someday, Someday kept me enthralled through the whole story. Beautifully written, emotional, and heart-breakingly romantic, this is one fantastic novel.

Readers are introduced to Max Kaufman and Silas Marsh, two distinctive characters with an immediate connection and immediate differences.

In "Someday, Someday," Emma Scott offers a moving story exploring abuse, loss, homophobia, love, and finally forgiveness. With a multitude of themes tackled, it's easy to become overwhelmed with the narrative and how much is going on. Though with well-crafted characters with distinctive personalities, the author successfully hooks readers, ensuring they're invested in their growth and journeys.

While at times gripping and emotive, the narrative's pace slows toward the middle, This caused a disconnect between the unraveling and progression of the plot. The story does, however, pick up as readers venture forward, resulting in a story definitely worth reading.

I tried reading Someday, Someday and just didn't enjoy it at all,
Hopefully I will try again someday and change my mind.
But for now, this one just didn't work for me.

I first want to thank Netgalley and Emma Scott for providing a copy for review!

Someday, Someday is a queer story of familial rejection, loss, love and forgiveness within our two main characters Max and Silas.

I greatly enjoyed the story. However, I found the story stalled a little in the middle and I began to lose interest near the end. The writing is good and told through dual pov’s (Max and Silas). I really enjoyed the secondary characters as well -- especially Eddie and Faith. They had fantastic characterization and personalities.

The sensitive subjects are skillfully handled and the story is wholly absorbing. There is a cast of characters that grow and develop as the story weaves through their daily lives of work and personal activities. It’s a journey of self-discovery where forgiveness, love and perspective are overall themes. Trigger warnings for addiction, alcohol/drug use, homophobia, abuse, and prostitution.

A heartwrenching love story that shows how love, in all its forms, truly wins over bigotry and prejudice.

Someday Someday is a MM romance between two people who may be opposites in socioeconomic status but who have experienced the same intolerance from those who were supposed to love them most – their families.

Max Kaufmann is a nurse who’s fought hard to overcome the hardships in his life. After being thrown out on the streets by his own family at age 16 for kissing another boy he’s battled living on the streets and drug addiction and has come out the other side. He’s now back in his hometown hoping to renew his relationship with his family.

Silas Marsh is the COO of his family’s multi-billion dollar pharmaceutical company. He turned to his company’s own painkiller to numb himself from the PTSD he’s suffering from as a result of abuse he endured as a teenager. Looking for help to keep himself sober, he found himself at an NA meeting where he meets Max.

Unbeknownst to both men, Max ends up taking a job as an in-house nurse to Silas’ ailing father. The close proximity sparks their initial attraction but it’s an attraction that comes with great risks, especially for Silas.
I thought Someday Someday was a wonderful story that dealt with intolerance, love, acceptance and human tragedy. Both Max and Silas struggle with the lack of acceptance by their families for the simple fact that they are gay. This lack of acceptance has had severe consequences for both.

The star of this book for me was Silas. He was perseverance personified. He went through a horrific experience as a teen and years later is still suffering the consequences. He’s still under the thumb of his father, the man responsible for his suffering, because he needs his approval to take over the company. Only his approval comes at the cost of denying his true self.

I thought Emma Scott did a fantastic job really showcasing how lonely Silas is and just how much of himself he has had to deny for the sake of his father. He’s not only had to deny his attraction to men but he’s had to deny his passions as well.

Max’s character was a great counterpoint even though they shared some parallel struggles. Though he’s no longer hiding the fact that he’s gay, he too is still struggling with acceptance from his family.

This was a heart wrenching book to see just how a person’s cruelty and homophobia can truly turn someone into a shell of a person. And yet, it was also a story of how love can help piece you back together. I’m not sure I believe some of the quick turn-around that occurred at the end of the book but it’s easily overlooked given the connection forged between these two lovers.

This was such a well-written book that I highly recommend reading. Thank you to NetGalley for the opportunity to read this book.