An interesting core story of a young adult abused by his family, hated and punished for his dad's sins by his own mother. Denied the love he so craved a second time by the church/faith he was living and breathing. Interesting exploration of the father complex & negative Oedipus complex. I've appreciated the positive/optimistic take on personal development. Or better said the refutation of social conditioning we hear so much about nowadays. This is something I strongly believe in: one can make something of himself despite roots, upbringing, society. But what I liked the most was Robert's story, really fascinating and I would have loved to read more about him, to see more development on that front.
Sadly all this is hidden under a huge amount of unnecessary descriptions, dialogues, a drug fueled orgy(sad as the fact he was a sex worker is what attracted me at first, but the accent is more on the amount of drugs being used rather than the actual sex work)...things I couldn't care less about and in fact truly bored me to the point where I had to skip entire pages...Also the usage of Jamaican accent and especially the Jamaican patois shouldn't have happened without footnote translation. It is unfair to expect your readers to Google translations when that's not an accurate method anyway. Particularly troublesome for a debut novel, it really takes a lot of willingness to go through the first 20% of the book like that.

Title - Rainbow Milk

Author - Paul Mendez

Genre - LGBT Historical Fiction

I had been provided with an e-Arc by the publishers via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review

If you are someone who are a huge fan of Historical Fiction, you would know that one gray area that authors hardly thread is the life of protagonist who come under the LGBT Umbrella. I had first come across Rainbow Milk in one of the booktube videos and I had immediately added it to my list. Rainbow Milk is one of those books that I would surely recommend to all the lovers of Historical Fiction and there are multiple reasons for it. Here is my take on why this book has been on my list of favorite books this year.

Rainbow Milk starts with the story of an ex-boxer Norman Alonso who unfortunately is losing his eyesight and we see how he and his family moved from Jamaica to UK during the war times and how he still has hope that there will be a time when blacks will be treated as equals among whites. We also see Jesse McCarthy around the year 2001 and ahead who has escaped his household after he was no more a part of Jehovah's Witness when he made homosexual moves towards his friend and has decided to start a new life in London. From living in a hostel and meeting new people to getting his life back on track, Jesse shows us the struggle of an individual who has been discriminated throughout his life for his race, class, sexuality, freedom and time.

For people picking this one up, explicit content is being warned of. The author has such crisp writing throughout the book that it does not take up much effort for anyone to get along with the characters. Every character has been given their individuality and they have been portrayed so beautifully that you cannot help but fall in love with each and every character. The main focus of the book is on Jesse and the narration is done pretty well from the first person perspective and it does let the reader fall in the character as if we are the particular individual.

As I mentioned early, the book is quite bold but it hardly comes up as something crass anywhere throughout. The emotions that are portrayed are so raw that at times you do feel that just does not let you put the book down. The only part where I was not completely satisfied and was left pretty much open ended was the closure of Norman's character which apparently seemed a bit rushed up and could have been detailed a bit more.

For a debut novel, this one is truly a masterpiece. Paul is bound to get us hooked from start to finish and do not let one get bored during the book. For someone who needs to learn the struggles of how an LGBT individual is learning to get accepted across decades, this book is a must pick. Highly Recommended.

I can't decide what to make of this novel, at its heart it's a raw, visceral and graphic coming of age story, but there's a lot of padding in the writing. I felt there were too many scenes in restaurants for no particular reason and quite patronising explanations of art and culture at times. I didn't care about any of the characters, but did wonder what happened to Norman's story?
For me, a shorter, less rambling book would've been better and definitely without the dialogue written in dialect - particularly the French waitress.
Thank you to NetGalley and Dialogue books for an advance copy of this book.

Paul Mendez's debut novel Rainbow Milk is predominantly the story of Jesse, a young guy escaping a repressive and neglectful religious upbringing in the Black Country, for a life of sexual and personal freedom in London. The start of the novel covers the difficult years experienced by Norman, a Jamaican immigrant, when he first arrives in the UK. Norman is later revealed to be Jesse's grandfather and by the end Jesse is able to discover his roots and start building a new loving family.

What to make of this novel? It is marketed as a fresh voice, an important debut by a black gay novelist but my instinct here is alongside being undoubtedly distinctive, original, challenging, this novel is not very good. There is no link between Norman and Jesse's stories. Norman's story is really intriguing but it just ends abruptly, like a shory story that runs out of steam and then gets bolted on to the main narrative. Jesse's early experiences in Wolverhampton come to life quite well and the religious experience feels authentic but later sections of the novel are less effective. There are long sex scenes which are not so much shocking as just boring. There are endless descriptions of songs, albums, poems, paintings. The dialogue is clunky and inauthentic. There are lengthy and dull scenes in resturants, dinner parties, the significance of which i just didn't understand. Jesse is quite an appealling protagonist but i feel he just diappears into the pretension of the novel as it progresses. He changes, but we don't feel it, we just get endless ciphers of his refined artistic palette. Maybe i have missed the point of the novel, but i didn't get it.

Thematically, an important and interesting look at a young gay black man's experiences in modern Britain. I just couldn't connect with the characters for some reason, and it all left me a little cold. Nonetheless, a bold new voice in fiction.

(With thanks to the publisher and NetGalley for an ARC of this title.)

Like Bernadine Evaristo's Girl, Woman, Other, Paul Mendez's assured debut, Rainbow Milk, charts an unacknowledged British history, of the Windrush generation, its legacies, right through to the coming of age of a young black man, Jesse McCarthy, growing up in the black country, rejected by the Jehovah's Witness's, despite being one of its congregation's favoured sons, thrown out by his family too. It begins with the arrival from Jamaica in the 1950s of experienced gardener and ex-boxer, Norman Alonso and his pregnant wife, Claudette, full of dreams, hopes and expectations. They are shocked by the sooty air and pollution of the black country, the inescapable hostility and racism directed at them from every nook and cranny of their new home. Matters are exacerbated as Norman begins to experience horrific headaches, finding he is slowly becoming blind and unable to work any more, trying to look after their children, Robert and Glorie, with the consequent unbearable pressures faced by Claudette.

Jesse is a bright boy, advised to leave education, working at McDonalds, unable to be who he is, making his way to London, operating as a sex worker, taking drugs, with all the dangers and threats this poses. He gravitates towards older white men, seeking a permanent relationship and to be looked after in a way that he has never experienced in his life. The depths of his mother's abuse and cruel neglect is slowly revealed, refusing to provide him with information about his father, other than that he was dead, but did she lie to him? Jesse grows up bursting with self hatred and anger at being black, convinced his mother fed him rainbow milk in the hope that he would die. Despite everything, unsurprisingly he misses his family that had denied him love, affection and any form of meaningful care and the Jehovah's Witnesses, blaming himself rather than them for failing him so catastrophically.

It takes Owen and their Christmas Day conversation for the light to begin to dawn on a tearful and lost Jesse, that he has thought of himself as white, how white men withdraw their love, never valuing him other than for sex, leaving him hungry, injured, depressed and broke. He has been left with a vacuum, the belief system and the family he had grown up had gone, they are no more He has to build himself another belief system, find a new centre of gravity and a new family. His church had brainwashed him from a young age that god is white, and the only embodiments of god on earth are white men, teaching him to worship white men, teaching him that he is less than nothing in comparison. However, circumstances conspire that he loses Owen just as they have found each other, only for them to meet again later.

Mendez's portrayal of Jesse is heartbreaking, I found myself completely invested in Jesse, desperately worried that the trajectory of his life was going to end in tragedy, but amidst the darkness, there are shards of light and hope, with the music and culture from the period. Jesse carves out a new life and family that speaks to the truth of who he is, the painful construction of a new identity, love, friends and eventually connecting with the existence of a family he never knew of. This is challenging, profoundly moving, storytelling, of the impact of the endemic historical and contemporary racism faced by the Windrush generation and their descendants in Britain, something that we can observe has never disappeared with the damning racist and hostile environment directed at them by a Home Office headed by Teresa May and which still continues. Mendez gives us a personal depiction of what this meant for the disenfranchised Alonso family and how it never diminishes for Jesse, from his schooling, his religion, and its impact when it came to his sexuality.

This is a stunning, unforgettable, riveting and compulsive reading, although I should warn readers that it is sexually explicit. Highly recommended. Many thanks to Little, Brown for an ARC.

Rainbow Milk is brilliant - a beautifully realised coming-of-age story that both gripped and moved me, Cleverly plotted, it weaves the stories of a family settling in Britain after arriving on the Windrush and a young man coming to terms with his identity in an oppressive society, as Andrea Levy's Small Island and Matthew Lopez's Inheritance collide in a unique and engaging story. Set against a backdrop of an ever-changing Britain from the 1950s by way of the terror of 9/11 to the present day, it paints a portrait of Britain, and the people who make it. Fans of Bernadine Evaristo will certainly enjoy this astounding novel.

Rainbow Milk is the story of a young man growing up and dealing with race, sexuality, class, and the after effects of having been brought up a Jehovah's Witness. At the start of the millennium, Jesse leaves the Black Country and his planned out life in religion to discover London, sex, drugs, love, and freedom. He does sex work and works as a waiter, he looks for friendships and purpose, and most of all, he forms new meaning for his life and who he is. And ultimately, reaching out from the past is a family connection he never knew that might give him a wider sense of belonging.

This is a gripping coming of age novel that really highlights the intersectional nature of oppression and identity, particularly how race affects both sexuality and religious upbringing. The narrative structure moves forward but also flashes back to show how Jesse' life progresses by focusing on key moments. There is also an initial section focused on Norman, who moves to the Black Country from Jamaica in the 1950s, and places Jesse's story within a wider picture of the Windrush generation and the treatment of black people in Britain. A lot of the novel is dialogue-focused, with many of the main scenes featuring lengthy conversations, and Mendez makes this very real and immediate, using characters' respective linguistic styles and dialects to show their complicated relationships and identities.

The content is sex, drugs, and Jehovah's Witnesses, and Mendez tells it in a bold, sometimes sad, and also heartwarming way. What makes Rainbow Milk feel distinctive is that it is full not only of exploration of big issues of race and sexuality and religion, but it is also full of hope, and forging your own future and family even when it might not fit what you or your upbringing had anticipated.

The story opens in the 1950s with boxer Norman Alonso and his family settling in the Black Country. He clearly isn't well and the family face racism from the British people, but Norman hopes that the move will secure his family's future.

This story is then abandoned to pick up the story of Jesse McCarthy in the early 2000s. A young, black Jehovah's Witness, he seems to have a bright future ahead of him until one misjudgment on his part causes him to be rejected by the church and his family. He moves to London in an attempt to find his place in the world, instead finding racism, waiting tables, sex work and a whole host of people to become his new family. Jesse's story occupies the vast majority of the book as he forges his own identity and finds his place in the world.

I found a lot of this novel absolutely compelling - Jesse is an engaging character and he meets a load of unusual and quirky people throughout the novel. The description of Jesse's childhood and the Jehovah's Witness movement was fascinating - totally alien to me, but really interesting. Jesse's struggles with his sexuality and involvement in sex work were also really believable, although really quite graphic in places as other reviewers have suggested. However, I found the book slightly uneven, particularly the long descriptions of waiting tables and the final bringing together of the family strands, both of which slowed the pace dramatically and could have been a bit more rigorously edited.

Overall, this is a very unusual story and definitely an interesting portrayal of a complex life. It's not for the faint-hearted, but Jesse is a lively, likeable and memorable character who will stay with you for quite a while to come.

Really enjoyed this read. Refreshing to have a good story alongside graphic erotica – so often it’s one or the other but not both together.

Jesse grew up as a Jehovah’s witness, but as he discovers his sexuality he is ‘defellowshipped’ and alienated by his family. Heading to London to forge a new life, we follow him as he embarks on a whirlwind of sexual encounters, before settling into a new life.

I thought the characters were well written and the story developed naturally and compellingly - found it hard to put this down.