Mothers and fathers beware! This book will shake you and it's meant to. Rea Frey is inventing the parent suspense trope one book at a time. In this book, mother's intuition is a character of its own. Scarily real and emotional and heart-pounding, this book encourages people to hug their loved ones and consider a really good alarm system.

Rebecca Gray has a degenerative eye disease and her world becomes darker every day. She has a photographic memory and has all her local routes memorized by steps. Her husband dies before her son is born and they her mother dies also. She is raising her son on her own. During an outing at the park her son goes missing. Nobody believes her as they all say her son is right there but she is positive this baby is not hers. A mother knows her baby. with or without sight she is positive. This story is her fight to find her son and to get others to believe her..Totally believable? Not sure but good story none the less.

2.5 STARS - I've enjoyed two of Frey's earlier books but what initially stood out for me in Until I Find You is that the main character, Bec is a blind new mother who has lived through more than her share of tragedies. She soon suspects that her infant son has been switched with another baby and her desperation to find him is palpable to the reader.

I wanted and expected to like this book more than I did, but it had some issues that were distracting to me. First, while I sympathized with Bec's fear, frustration, and loss, she was a hard character to connected with. She's endured a lot but her strength soon turns to stubbornness (which becomes more annoying the further we get into the story) because she repeatedly refuses even the simplest proffered help she clearly needs.

But my main issue with this book is how the plot gets so farfetched. I could not get on board with the idea that Bec's friends didn't recognize that Jackson wasn't the same baby. I may not have seen my friends' kids daily, but I'd still recognize them. And unfortunately, the big twist wasn't remotely plausible to me.

We're also left with a few unanswered questions -- Who was moving things in Bec's house? Was she really being followed or was that all in her head? What/who was making the noises in her house? I would have liked some answers. And I thought the inclusion of her ex-boyfriend, who suddenly shows up, unnecessary and superfluous.

There are parts of this book that I enjoyed - the premise, a look into a blind mom's life but this is more Contemporary Fiction than the Suspense read I was expecting. This story had enough going to keep me reading, but I had hoped for a better and more believable twist and a character I could get behind. This just wasn't a good fit for me but please know I'm in the minority with my feelings.

Disclaimer: My sincere thanks to St Martin's Griffin for my complimentary digital copy of this title, via NetGalley, in exchange for my honest review.

Rebecca does not have the easiest life. Her husband was killed shortly after she found out she was pregnant. She also has an illness that caused her to lose her sight. This means she is raising a baby alone and blind. When she picks up her son from his crib one day she knows it’s not him. He feels different, smells different, and cries different. Even though Rebecca can’t see, she knows her child and this child is not him. Her close friends don’t believe her and think she is suffering from grief and lack of sleep. She knows if she is to get her son back, she has to do it on her own.

I enjoyed this book and it was a very quick read. As a mother I could relate to Rebecca but could not imagine raising a child without my sight. No one believes her but she stays strong and fights for her child.

This was a page turner. I could not imagine living this life as a mother. So much of our lives revolves around sight. Navigating the world without sight is difficult enough but taking care of a baby!? Wow.

I really enjoyed how this story built up and how the MC was questioned about what she believed. You doubt she actually knows the truth but if you are a mother, deep down you KNOW she knows the truth. How could you not know your child?

Amazing. Loved it!

Thanks so much to NetGalley, St Martin's Press and Rea Frey for the opportunity to read and review this wonderful book - 5 stars!

Bec Gray is trying desperately to hold her life together. In the span of a year, her husband died in an accident, she gave birth to their son, Jackson; and then her mother passed away. Plus, Bec has lost her eyesight to a degenerative eye disease so she also lost her job in an orchestra. She is struggling as a single mom with not enough sleep and afraid of missing something important with Jackson due to her blindness. In recent days, Bec has felt like someone is following her or entering her home when she's not there, but no one quite believes her. After an afternoon in the park with friends, Bec realizes that the baby she brings home isn't Jackson - but no one believes that either.

This is a gripping novel that is full of emotion. The fact that Bec is blind really let the reader into a different world. You can only imagine how scary everything is when you can't see, especially if you are trying to do everything by yourself. Coming from a family with vision issues, this book felt incredibly real and the author did her research into current aids for the blind as well as what that world feels like. Highly recommended!

Until I Find You from Rea Frey kept me captivated from start to finish. It was an emotional and suspenseful read. Rebecca Gray, Bec, is a widow, mother and slowly losing her sight due to a degenerative disease. Having recently lost now only her husband, she also loses her mother. On her own, she is trying so hard to be independent. On a day she is out with her son, something happens and she is sure someone swapped her son, but no one believes her. What follows is her journey to discover the truth and it will keep you at the edge of your seat!

Happy reading!

Rea Frey has honed her skills at writing the domestic thriller. From the first pages the main character, Rebecca(Bec) is navigating her stroller with her newborn toward a park. Why is this of note? She's partially blind. Within the first few pages I'm wondering how this is going to unfold. BUT within the first few chapters, I'm on the edge frantically turning pages because I can't take not knowing what's going to happen.

Bec has fallen on dire times. First her husband passes away after the birth of their son and shortly after her mother passes away. She met Chrystal at a grief counseling group and they lean on each other. If that isn't enough, Bec's baby disappears, but she isn't believed. C'mon, mother's intuition, right? It seems like(in my unprofessional opinion) that if one of your senses is taken away that the other senses are overly sensitive. Maybe that's bs, but maybe that's why I fell for this storyline and loved it. Plus, Bec was a believable character. I was flipping pages so fast to get to the conclusion of this latest novel by Ms. Frey.

Thanks to NetGalley and St. Martin's Press for the arc.

The story is good, very innovative and unique not the same trope that's been done over and over. However the writing is amateurish and unremarkable. At times redundant and at times flat. I wanted to enjoy reading it but unfortunately I didn't. I'm sorry. I appreciate the chance to have read it though.

'Until I Find You' is my first @reafrey book and it won't be my last! It's full of suspense and emotions and had me on the edge of my seat, turning pages as quickly as I could.

Being a new mother is tough, being a new single mother is even more difficult, and being blind on top of all that...while I can't ever know what that's truly like, Frey did an incredible job helping me feel it, and it was both heartbreaking and terrifying. She did an amazing job of researching what it's like to be a blind parent.

I loved the character development and really liked some of the side characters. I felt so heartbroken, frustrated and angry for Bec, and also inspired by her. Being blind, her other senses are heightened, so she noticed things about her baby that might have been overlooked by a parent with sight. Bottom line, a mother knows her child and the powerful bond between mother and child is like no other.

Do I feel she made some poor choices leading up to the events? Sure! But don't we all make poor choices in hindsight? Plus, I can totally understand that independent streak, especially when you have a disability. It took a long time for me to give in and accept help when my illness/es first struck. I was already an independent person, but I just wanted to be even more so at that point. To feel I still had control over some things in my life.

If you like suspensful stories that are also packed with emotions, you should check this one out!

Many thanks to Netgalley and St Martins Press for the egaley and the opportunity to share my thoughts. Please keep in mind that my thoughts are based on the ARC and there may have been changes in the finished copy.

This book is nothing of what you expect it to be. It's so much more. It's engrossing. It's emotional and intense. Utterly compulsive. I couldn't put it down. I don't have children but I couldn't imagine if something like this happened to me. Devastatingly heart wrenching. A must read. Happy reading!

Until I Find You is a domestic thriller like none I’ve read before. Rebecca has survived more than her fair share of difficulty, losing both her husband and mother within a year while also gradually losing her sight after being diagnosed with a degenerative eye disorder. Now a new mother coping with multiple losses, her world is drawn inward, with Rebecca developing a laser focus on her infant son.
Determined to remain as independent as possible, Rebecca has developed a series of adaptive strategies to continue raising her son on her own. From moving to the furniture to the perimeter of each room to placing an anklet of bells on her son, Rebecca eschews the many offers of help from her friends. However, when she returns home one day from the park to find her front door wide open, she begins to wonder if she does perhaps need some help after all.
Rebecca’s intense desire to protect her baby at all costs lead some of her friends to wonder if she’s becoming unhinged. These questions only amplify after Rebecca is convinced her baby has been switched with another and that the child she’s now nursing, rocking to sleep, and taking for walks is no longer her own. With only an ex-boyfriend on her side, Rebecca is forced to play detective on her own and to push the boundaries of acceptable behavior in order to find her son.
This intense thriller pushes the reader to question how well they know their friends. As a mother, I found the premise automatically heart racing, and in this novel, it’s taken up a notch when Rebecca is unable to visually verify that the baby is not hers. Throw in friends who have rarely seen his face due to Rebecca’s overprotectiveness, and suddenly Rebecca is the suspect instead of the victim. I did find the sudden appearance of her ex and his willingness to help a bit too fortuitous, otherwise this would have been a five-star read.
Thank you to Netgalley and St Martin’s Press for the complimentary advance copy. This did not impact my review.

This is the second of three books by this author that I have read and loved. It’s a very touching, loving, story of many losses and a love so deep nothing can stop it. Nothing can take it away. Nothing can stop the feelings of a mother who is looking for her child who has been taken. This is my favorite Rea Frey book.

Rebecca/Bec is a new mother. She’s also blind. She has had a year that is more than most could ever endure. She lost her husband, her mother, her sight and now her three month old baby boy. Who could do such a horrible thing. Bec always meets her friends at the park. Each has a child and each knows the love of a mother. It runs deep. Did one of them take her baby and leave a total stranger in his place. Do any of them believe her about her son being taken?

Rebecca goes through something that is so horrible. So unforgivable. So heartbreaking. She feels so alone. No one seems to believe her when she says that the baby in her home is not her son. But she knows. She knows her son. She may be blind, but she knows. On one can convince her that this baby is hers. But she’s not heartless. She worries about this little boy too. Why is he in her son’s crib. Who would do such a horrible thing to her.

When it seems all else has failed Rebecca does what she has to do to find her baby boy. She won’t stop until she has Jackson back where he belongs. Her friends help her as much as they can and a long ago love reappears. Jake was the love of Rebecca’s life until his job took him away. She had her reasons for staying behind. She had a promising career as a Cello player.

Crystal is Rebecca’s best friend. They met at grief counseling and immediately hit it off. They became fast friends. Both lost their husbands and both have a child. Crystal has a 10 year old daughter she’s raising on her own. She has a nanny to help but she misses her husband so much that she’s not totally there for her daughter. As much as Crystal wants to help Rebecca, she is not sure whether the baby is truly not Jackson or not. She’s never really looked at him. Never held him. She just doesn’t know. But she does know that Bec is a wonderful mother and that something is definitely wrong.

This story is told from two views. Rebecca’s and Crystal’s. Each has a story to tell too. Each has many things going on in their lives. Each has lost to much. They have friends that are there but do they really know them. Do they really know each other? There are many twists going on in this book. Two stories actually told. There’s Rebecca’s story and Crystal’s story. Of each of their lives and losses. Things going on that only they can understand. They have a close friendship. Rebecca is giving Crystal’s daughter Cello lessons too. Crystal’s daughter needs attention. Attention from her mother not the nanny.

This book is so good. It’s a heartfelt story of a mother’s love for her baby boy. What she is willing to do to get him back. The forgiveness she has in her heart for others. The kindness she has. It’s the story of several mothers. All with problems of their own. One knows what happened. I didn’t figure it out. Can you?

Thank you to #NetGalley, #ReaFrey, #StMartin’sPress for the ARC of this book. This is my own true review.

I gave it a 5/5 stars and the highest recommendation. A must read.

Whoa! I was totally not prepared for the feels this book gave me! This psychological thriller had me turning pages so fast that I didn’t realize it was ending when it did!

Rebecca Grey lost her sight due to a degenerative eye disease and has depended on her instincts and numbers to help her with her daily life. After days of feeling like she is being followed, her paranoia kicks into overdrive. When her infant son starts crying and won’t stop, she goes to check on him and realizes it’s not her son in the crib. It’s a different baby.

The story unfolds and everyone she knows becomes a suspect. Her friends don’t believe her and she is close to losing the only thing she has left to live for. But can she prove it isn’t her son based on her instincts?

This story was so well written that I felt so connected to Rebecca and the pain she was feeling as a mother. The author did an outstanding job making Rebecca such a strong character that you forget at times she is living with a disability. It was obvious Frey did her research on living with vision loss and I loved how capable Rebecca was living on her own and taking care of a newborn.

This one is out today! Thanks to St. Martin’s Press for an advanced copy in exchange for my honest review.

There is no such thing as paranoia. Your worst fears can come true at any moment. - Hunter S. Thompson

This was a book that caused me a few very tense moments. Going blind is a big fear of mine. This author ramped up my anxieties from page one, just about the loss of vision. She did a masterful job of describing the main character's gradual loss of vision and the feelings of what incurs when that happens.

Rebecca Gray used to be a cellist with the Chicago Symphony Orchestra, traveling the world, and playing her music. But, as she gradually lost her sight, she wasn't able to continue in her beloved profession.

On top of the tremendous losses of losing her vision and profession, she has also had two more life-changing tragedies recently in her life. It's no wonder she's having panic attacks.

She now lives in a suburb outside of Chicago with her baby son and tries her best to navigate in a world she can no longer see. She is severely sleep deprived, as most new mothers are, and so when strange events start happening to her, she's not sure whether it's her imagination or not.

Then one day the unimaginable happens. She goes in to pick up her son and he's been switched with another baby. And no one will believe her.

This was an excellent book even though it almost gave ME panic attacks. It was a psychological thriller filled with some twists and turns throughout its pages and I highly recommend this reading experience. I rated it 4 1/2 stars rounded up to five.

I received this book from St. Martin's Press through Net Galley in the hopes that I would read it and leave an unbiased review.

Rebecca Gray has suffered more loss than most, but she’s not about to lose her baby too. Bec has Stargardt disease and has lost most of her eye sight. On her own caring for a baby has been difficult, but Jackson is the joy of her life. Sleep deprived, Bec has let paranoia set in. When she has a slight accident friends step in to help out, but when Bec wakes up after a much needed nap, she knows that the baby in the crib is not Jackson. She has memorized every inch of him and this baby is not hers! What happened to Jackson and who is the baby in the crib? Why would anybody swap babies?? When she voices her concerns, no one believes her. They think she’s gone over the edge, but has she? While the ending didn’t tie up every loose end, it was a little too perfect. Both thought provoking and entertaining, this was a good read!

Rebecca (Bec) Gray is blind and mother to an infant son, Jackson. She is learning to maneuver around to enable her to take Jackson for strolls around the park. She worries about when he gets older and more mobile if she will be able to keep up with him and protect him. Her husband, Chris, died about a year ago when he was hit by a car. She then moved in with her mother who has since died.

Bec has made many friends in this nice neighborhood and belongs to a grief group. One friend she has made there is Crystal whose husband, Paul, was killed by a drunk driver. She has a daughter, Savi, age 10. Bec was once an accomplished cellist. Savi has expressed an interest in playing the instrument and Bec is giving her lessons.

At the park one day, Bec faints but quickly rallies. She is somewhat sleep deprived. So a friend takes her home and insists that she nap while her friend watches Jackson. When she wakes up to attend to her baby, she realizes just by touch that this child is not Jackson. Who took her son and why?

This is a book full of angst and sadness. I couldn’t imagine being blind! The author certainly did a good job of describing Bec’s challenges. What I didn’t like was that Bec tends to be a hot head and jumping up and leaving the house when the notion strikes her. Sometimes she leaving her phone behind and sometimes it’s late at night. Not good. Of course her grief is enormous as is caring for a newborn so perhaps the author was striving to place these actions as a reason for her impulsiveness. An interesting story that I enjoyed.

Copy provided by NetGalley and in exchange for a fair and honest review.

How can she cope with so many losses in her life?

Rebecca lost her sight, her husband, her mother, and now the nightmare of losing her son seems to have come true.

When Rebecca absolutely knows this is not her baby, she goes to all lengths to find him even though no one believes her because they see no difference between this baby and Jackson.

Rebecca’s friends do help her, but they can’t be there 24/7 if she needs help.

Besides all these things happening and her friends seeming to help, they appear to be a bit shady along with the babysitter of one of the friends.

I actually didn’t like or trust any of Rebecca’s friends. They just seemed to not be sincere, and they all seemed to have problems of some sort and secrets.

I felt something sinister as I read, and as odd things happened, and as authorities reacted, the tension increased and I believed her that this baby was not her son.

UNTIL I FIND YOU has a tension-filled build up, and you can feel the dread and fear Rebecca has.

The ending is a big surprise.

Those readers who enjoy thrillers and solving mysteries, will not be disappointed. 5/5

This book was given to me by the publisher via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

This book is about love. The love between a mother and her child. Rebecca Gray is a young woman who has lost her sight to a degenerative eye disease. She’s also the mother of a 3 month old baby boy named Jackson. Bec knows everything about Jackson even though she’s never seen his face. She knows the shape of his face, the dip in his collarbone, the eczema behind his ear. She knows his smell and the sound of his cry. But she is raising her baby alone. She is a widow who lost her husband in a tragic accident before Jackson was born. Bec navigates her home by counting steps. How many steps to Jackson’s crib? How many stairs does she have go up and down? She has the layout of her home inside her brain because she used to be able to see.
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When Bec faints at the local park, her friends rally to help her. But when Bec is finally home and she reaches for Jackson in his crib, she realizes a horrifying truth: the baby in the crib is not her son.
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I absolutely loved Bec. She’s such a tragic character, but she’s so strong and brave. This book is part suspense, part drama and a little slow at the beginning. But that was okay for me. I wanted to get to know Bec and Rea Frey did such a wonderful job with her research on degenerative eye disease and what it’s like to navigate the world without your sight. After the first part of this novel, the pages flew by and I couldn’t read fast enough. I was there with Bec, wanting to help her.
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Until I Find You brought me out of a pretty bad slump and for that, I’m grateful. I loved this one!

I received an ARC from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. I was asked to read and review this book and I knew I should have said no. I read Because You're Mine and did not enjoy it at all. Unfortunately I feel the same about this book. Slow beginning, unrealistic characters and events. I just could not grasp any part of this book to enjoy. I'm sure there are other readers that will enjoy it immensely. 📚