I am a big fan of Rea Freys's writing. She knows how to create dramatic memorable characters and complex plots. Until I find you is a case in point. Newly widowed Rebecca Gray is slowly losing her sight due to a degenerative eye disease which also means that she has to rely heavily on her memory, Bec has recently her mother and has to take care of her three month old baby.
She is convinced somebody is stalking her and her home feels strangely off as if somebody has been to her house and moved things. The scariest thing of all is that the baby lying in the crib isn't her son Jackson. Of course, the authorities don't believe her, but Bec knows the truth and she won't stop until she finds him.
The plot was totally gripping. The concept of a mother feeling her child has been replaced by another baby isn't a new one, but the execution is great. Bec is sleep-deprived and is in genuine need of help and support especially after her mother passes away. Unfortunately, sometimes it iesn't easy to accept help if you desperately trying to prove that you can take care of yourself and your child without the social services being involved. Because this is Rea Frey, get ready for twists and turns, and a surprising ending.
It was very interesting to explore the topics of motherhood, grief and anxiety through the point of view of a visually impaired person.
Until I find you is a well-written, emotionally-charged mystery/thriller that will keep you reading until the small hours.

Thank you to NetGalley and St.Martin's Griffin for the ARC provided in exchange for an honest opinion.

Thanks to NetGalley and St Martin's Press for an advanced copy in exchange for an honest review for Until I find you by Rea Frey. Since Rebecca Gray was diagnosed with a degenerative eye disease, her world grows a little darker and each step becomes a little more dangerous. Her husband died before her son was born and one day she awakes at home to the cries of her son in his nursery. Bec goes to check on him. She reaches in. Picks him up. But he’s not her son. And no one believes her. Until I find you started out as a great thriller, but started to drift a bit in the middle, and ended up becoming more of a mystery. There were some loose threads that were never explained. This book was good, but it could have been better.

WOW! OK before I get to the book I want to share something about myself that many of you don’t know. Like the MC in this book Rebecca I also have a degenerative eye disease. I have been losing my sight slowly since the age of 10, I am now 50 so it’s been a slow process. Also like Becca I am a mother, but when my kids were babies my vision was not as bad as hers in this book. The reason I share this is because it is very rare that you read about a main character who is blind and if there is a blind character they are usually NOT accurately depicted. Rea Frey really did her homework and I applaud her depiction of Rebecca in this book. Like Becca I can be stubborn and probably frustrating to those that care about me when it comes to help. I appreciated how strong and independent she was, Blind/visually impaired people are able to do much more than people give them credit for. Now I do have to say it wasn’t perfect. There were a few little technical things that I did notice, but only somebody who deals with voiceover technology on their phone will notice that. Also before I get to the book *finally* I just want to clarify some things after reading some reviews. When a blind mother goes home from the hospital with her baby they don’t send a social worker, they are completely capable of taking care of their child just like you. Also just because someone’s lying doesn’t mean they’re helpless, they’re as unlikely to ask for help as anyone else, maybe even less so. Additionally the blind/visually impaired have an unemployment rate of 70% and on average get $767 a month disability from the government. I just have to say it is a shame we do not take better care of the disabled population in this country. *steps off soapbox*

This was a tension filled domestic thriller that gripped me from the very first page. My heart was racing as Becca navigated through the park thinking someone was following her. My heart broke when Becca discovered the baby in the crib was not hers. And I was frustrated right alongside Becca as everyone didn’t seem to believe that this was not her baby. This is a book about the strength of the mother child Bon and Becca was not the only mom whose story was told in the book. We also get the perspective of Crystal... becca and Crystal met at grief group having both lost their husbands within the past year. Crystal is the mother to a precocious 10-year-old daughter. Crystal is a good friend to Rebecca, but Crystal is hiding something. The tension was seriously ramped up the entire book. I needed Becca to be believed and her baby to be found. I also needed to know what in the world Crystal was hiding. Not sure if I’d called this a thriller or not but I was definitely riveted! The audio was narrated by Samantha Desz Who did a stellar job of tightening the tension in the story. An addictive story with an ending I’m still thinking about.

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*** Big thank you to St. Martin’s Press and Macmillan Audio for my gifted copy of this book. All opinions are my own. ***📱

(2.5 stars rounded down)

When Rebecca (Bec) finds herself rapidly losing her vision due to a degenerative eye disease, she starts adjusting to life without sight. But then her husband dies. And he dies the month she finds out she's pregnant with their only child. And so she goes to live with her Mom, but then her Mom dies less than a year later! (Phew, that's a lot, but that's all revealed within just the first few pages). Living life blind with no assistance from anyone else, and while also taking care or a newborn, Bec thinks she has life all figured out. Until one day, she goes to pick up her son, and realizes it's not her son. But no one will believe her (because she's blind).

Honestly, when I sum up the premise of this novel, it sounds a little absurd to begin with, but the conclusion is even more farfetched. Not only did I not really connect or care for Bec's character (which seems to mostly be defined by her loss of sight and her love of playing cello), I didn't really connect to any of the characters in this novel. It also started to irk me how Savi (a friend's daughter) is supposed to be 10 years old but is constantly written to appear much younger. Like 6 or 7? Her age is very important if you decide to read this novel until the end...<spoiler>Because Savi is supposed to appear to be some horrible mastermind that orchestrated a baby swap and successfully kept it a secret from all the adults in her life for several days!</spoiler> Overall, I just felt like this could have taken a different, more suspenseful/sinister turn that would have been a lot more compelling and would have maybe made me feel more for Bec? <spoiler>Although, let's face it. She almost immediately admits that she didn't really love her dead husband all that much and couldn't wait to get back into the arms of her college sweetheart. I just found that whole love interest a little weird/cringe-y, and all too convenient because of course her ex-boyfriend is a lead detective.</spoiler> Readable enough, just not one of my favorites.

Rebecca Grey is recently widowed and caring for her three-month-old son Jackson. She is also coping with a degenerative eye disease that will eventually leave her blind. She is lucky to have a circle of supportive mothers that meet daily at a nearby park. These friends support Rebecca as she raises her child without a spouse and almost no vision.

One day at the park, Rebecca faints. Her friends bring her home to rest and take turns watching Jackson until she feels better. Later when she retrieves Jackson from the crib, she is shocked that the baby does not feel like her son. Rebecca is convinced that someone has switched her baby. Her friends have trouble believing her story and feel that she is suffering from stress and exhaustion. Rebecca won’t give up on finding her son, even if she has to do it alone.

Until I Find You is the third novel by Rea Frey. This novel reminded me of the multitude of feelings when first caring for a newborn and the challenges with making friends. This domestic thriller is satisfying and addictive.

I will leave a review on Amazon or B&N on Aug. 11., 2020

I found the beginning of the book a little slow, but after a few chapters I really got entangled in the storyline. The book had plenty of twists and turns, and I can honestly say I never figured out whom was responsible for what had happened in the book. I certainly would recommend this book to others.

I received a ARC from NetGalley and the publisher and I was under no obligation to give a good review, all opinions expressed here are my own.

Until I Find You by Rea Frey is a recommended domestic thriller.

Rebecca (Bec) Gray is nearly blind with a degenerative eye disease. She is also a recent widow, a new mother, and then her mother passed away after she came to live with her. To say her life has been stressful is an understatement, but Bec is managing to get by. Her photographic memory helps her to count steps and remember the number she takes to reach various things and places. She continues to meet friends for coffee, takes walks, and meets friends at the park. The only problem is that she feels like someone is watching her. It also appears that someone is getting into her house. But when she is sure that someone has switched babies and the one she has now is not her son Jackson, no one is certain she is correct. Bec must rely on her own instincts to find out what happened to Jackson and bring him home.

The search for Jackson is tense and Bec is portrayed as a strong woman who is facing the adversity head on, even when it is thought that she may be suffering from a psychological disorder. Her friends can't tell if the baby she now has is Jackson or not. The police don't believe her either. After a slow start, the plot picked up and held my attention. Frey does do an excellent job portraying a capable woman with a visual impairment. This is in some ways more of a domestic drama combined with a romance, although there is a mystery included. I'm not a fan of the ending, but it does provide a fitting conclusion to the narrative.

So, I feel a little sheepish admitting that I didn't care for the characters of Bec and her friends almost from the start and they all seemed the same. Perhaps it was the obvious depiction that this is how the wealthy young mothers live and I certainly didn't know people liked this when I was a young mother - Nannys, plenty of time for walks, trips to the park, a support group, going out for coffee, attending a neighborhood party, make plans to redo the house... Yeah, you could do some of that with a three month old, but not as easily as described. And why didn't Bec accept help as soon as she thought someone was stalking her and going into her house? Then once she thought someone had switched babies, uh, blood tests people. Jackson's blood type would already be on record. If that was the same blood type, then genetic tests are available. It also seemed that her fainting spells and panic attacks were too convenient a plot device. Okay, I liked the novel, but I didn't love it.

Disclosure: My review copy was courtesy of Macmillan.
After publication the review will be posted on Amazon and Barnes & Noble.

Thanks to Netgalley for the advanced reader copy.

This was interesting and different where because Rebecca’s eyesight gets worse every day. This is the proof that a mother’s love know no bounds. This book was (excuse the pun) truly eye opening as I thought of what it would be like to be blind. I feel bad for Bec when none of her friends really believe her.

An emotional thriller about how well a mother knows her child, and how she’ll fight through all obstacles to get to the truth.

Bec is blind, recently widowed, and is now all alone in caring for her infant son. The first half of the book seems to be the thriller, when she feels as though she’s being followed, just from what she senses in her gut.

The second half then takes us on her emotionally driven fight to get to the truth, when she is convinced that her baby was switched with another one. Even though no one believes her, because she’s blind, she knows that the baby she now has is not her son, and she sets out to prove it to everyone and get her baby back.

This book is superbly written and really gives a great look through Bec’s eyes with her struggles within herself. A poignant tale with twists and lessons learned that is not to be missed!

Thank you to NetGalley, Rea Frey and St. Martin’s for an eARC in exchange for an honest review.

I received an advance copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. You can get your copy here https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0818NNT7R/ref=dp-kindle-redirect?_encoding=UTF8&btkr=1
Ok, I just finished reading this and have to review it while it is still fresh in my memory. I am going to do my best not to give away any spoilers, so this may end up short, so I do not get away with myself…Have you ever ridden a roller coaster or an amusement park ride and gotten off and all of your friends are like, “ Let’s go on this next” and you are left being dragged along with your head all gobbled up from the last ride and aren’t quite ready for the next one? Well, this is how I feel right now-HOLY CRAP! Was that the teacups or was it a rollercoaster that had a dead drop and I was in the first car? Not sure, but Rea Fray has done it again! She has a way of writing where she MAKES you feel! If you aren’t completely screaming in the middle of this book, you are heartless, shallow being! I was screaming, freaking out and OMGing. I decided to read this book in the middle of a hike. I decided to take a break and read, well my reading break kind of lasted until the end of the book. Yeah, not the BEST place to read a freaky book in the shade of the forest alone! I am going to be thinking about this one for a while!
We start out with Rebecca, a blind woman pushing her son, Jackson in a stroller. A woman approaches her and startles Rebecca because Jackson’s anklet fell off. It is a bracelet with bells, so she knows where he is at all times. Rebecca has the feeling that someone is following her. Rebecca ends her walk in the park. Jess, Beth with three-month-old Trevor strapped to her chest all meet up at the park to meet up with Rebecca and Jackson. They share a bond as moms, but Rebecca has been through the ringer with her husband Chris dying about a year ago and her mom dying just two months ago. Rebecca returns home to find her door open. She is sure that she locked it. She calls her friend Jess and they call the police. Officer Toby finds nothing missing, but Rebecca soon realizes that some things are out of place. A blind woman knows EXACTLY where things are, as it is important when walking through rooms and needing certain things. We are then lead on quite the adventure, so buckle up and cancel your plans for the day because this book grabs you, sucks you in and doesn’t let go until it is over. My heart is still racing after reading this and I am not sure when it will stop. I need to go do some yoga or drink some wine. Enjoy!

This is a fast-paced mystery/thriller involving a mother and son and the love in that relationship. This mother, Bec, is a woman who is caring for her son but also dealing with being a widow and losing her eyesight due to a degenerative disease. She spends time with a friend and her son is resting. When she picks him up, she realizes that it is not her son. the intrigue and mystery starts and builds and twists throughout. Quick and fun read.

Thank you for the early copy for review.
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Until I Find You by Rea Frey is an excellent book I would classify in the fiction thriller genre.

Until I found You is beautifully written and an emotional journey, keep the tissues ready!

Rebecca (bec) is recently widowed and blind due to a degenerative disease. She has a three month old baby that goes missing. She will do anything and everything to find her baby even if no one believes her story.

Characters are written perfectly with emotion and complex characteristics.

This story is about a mothers love and the will to survive.

Highly recommend!

Bec is under a lot of pressure - her husband died, her mother died, and she's got an infant, Jackson, to care for. Oh, and she's blind. SHe's got a photographic memory, though, and has carefully plotted her way to and from the park and all around her mom's home. One day, though, she falls, passes out, and finds that everything has changed. Someone has been in her house. AND someone has swapped out her child. Who would do that and why? No one believes her, really. Told alternately by Bec and her friend (or is she?) Crystal, this one will keep you guessing as Bec tries to convince others, including an ex, that something is wrong. Ok- up front- there are some plot holes here (others probably should see a difference in the baby and even bigger, why no one ran a blood test is beyond me). However, these are good characters, Frey has a nice storytelling style, and the fact that Bec is blind made this more intriguing. Thanks to the publisher for the arc. It's a fast paced read that kept me guessing.

Until I Find You by Rea Frey is a thriller like no other. I found my heart in my throat for parts of the story. Rea Frey sent me on a journey, a quest where I was not sure I would ever find the answer.

The main character, Rebecca Gray is losing her eyesight due to a degenerative disease. Her husband was killed suddenly while she was pregnant. Bec suddenly was a single parent with a new baby. Exhaustion crept at her. She was constantly feeling paranoid, wondering why her doors are unlocked or why the playpen is in the middle of the room. Then one day, while she was in the park with friends, she fell and was hurt. Her friends took care of her and helped watch the baby, but when she woke up, she knew the baby, Jackson, wasn’t hers. She knew she had someone else’s baby. Jackson was gone.

What a twisted story this is. I bounced between two different probabilities while I wondered what the truth was. Was this a woman losing her mind? Was this a case of postpartum depression? What was the truth. Until I Find You by Rea Frey was a thriller and a good read.

It has been a while since I read a novel about a baby switch so was very hopeful that it would something to sink my teeth into. I love a good who done it. This one was a little different in that the mother was blind so added some new ways for her to be ignored and poo-poo’d by everyone around her and to think she was crazy. I found her to be a strong, amazingly bright and yet stubborn woman. I understood her wanting to prove to herself and the world that no matter what happened she could take care of herself and her child. It was interesting and had some wonderfully well crafted twists and turns. That said, for me it had some glaring issues that I kept getting stuck on. Why didn’t anyone who is sighted notice that it was a different child or just look at some pics of the baby before and after? How would no one else notice that it was a different baby? In fact they do not all look the same. What kind of friends does she have that they thought she was crazy rather than believing a mothers instinct? Also, every childs footprints are taken at birth so why not check that, run a simple blood test or even DNA test? The ending for me was wrapped up in an unbelievably silly manner and under no circumstances would any mother just walk away like she did. Not after what she had been through. So if you can suspend anything related to reality and our legal system than you might enjoy this book. I found the ending disappointing. She was so much nicer and more forgiving that I or anyone I know could or would have ever be.

A mother's love knows no limits; Until I Find You is a powerful story of the unique love and bond a mother has with her child. Rebecca, newly widowed and visually impaired, is trying to make a new life for her and her baby boy Jackson. Moving back to her childhood home in Elmhurst, she finds a group of friends among the mothers in the park. Fiercely independent (to her slight detriment), Bec tries to do it all without help. She develops an uneasy feeling that her friends pass of as sleep deprivation all new mothers experience. However, after a trip to the park something unusual happens. That same day, when Jackson wakes up, even though Bec can't see him the way most mothers are able to see their children, she realizes this baby is not Jackson. In what seems to be a race against time, she tries to prove to the community and police that her mother's instincts are right. Will she find her son? If this baby isn't Jackson, who is he? And why would someone swap babies? These questions and more will be answered in Rea Frey's latest hit!

This has been my favorite book so far in August-it is well written, emotional and with likeable characters. The tension and action are executed seamlessly and so much research has been done to effectively portray a visually impaired mother. Frey captured the emotions and challenges so well you become invested in the outcome-4.5 stars! Great read!

Thank you to the writer, publisher and NetGalley for this ARC in exchange for my honest feedback.

I loved Frey’s book Because Your Mine, so I was excited to get an advanced copy of Until I Find You. Frey does such a great job at writing women characters. Now she takes on a woman struggling with grief, new motherhood, and a disability. If that doesn’t draw you in, imagine the worst fear for a mother coming true.

Rebecca Gray has lost so much. Her husband, Chris, was killed in an accident and he didn’t get to see their son Jackson be born. Now, her sight is nearly gone. Having been diagnosed with a degenerative eye disease, she is nearly blind. And Bec is alone to care for Jackson. Luckily she has a few close friends that she can count on.

Recently as her world has gotten darker and darker, Bec feels as if someone is following her or watching her. Unsure if this is just a symptom of losing the remnants of her sight, she tries not to make a big deal of it. Her sole thought is to keep Jackson safe.

At a mom’s day out in the park, Bec suddenly faints. Her friends tend to her and make sure she is okay. Hours later, at home, Jackson is fussy. As Bec goes to pick him up in his crib, she is shocked! This is not her son!

Bec quickly calls upon her friends to help, but she finds out that no one seems to believe her. What are they seeing that she can’t?

This story had me on edge! I couldn’t imagine being the mother of a newborn and not being able to see. It gave me a greater appreciation for those with disabilities. As I said, Frey writes female characters very well, she shows the emotions, but also the strengths and instincts women have. I recommend this book if you enjoy domestic thrillers or women’s fiction.

Thank you to @stmartinspress and @netgalley for this advanced readers copy for review. This book will be available on August 11, 2020.

Until I Find You started off so intense, my heart couldn’t stop racing. The main character, Rebecca, is blind and the single mother of a 3 month old little boy. I had trouble being a mom with my sight and a husband! She is so exhausted that she starts having panic attacks and being forgetful. Or is someone trying to scare her? Suddenly she realizes her baby has been replaced with another baby. Of course no one will believe her. At times I thought I had the mystery solved but I would never have guessed the ending. Don’t start this book before bedtime!

Rating: 3.5 rounded down to 3 stars

This was a solid book, but it was not fast-paced enough for me to consider it a tippy top-notch thriller. While reading this on my Kindle, I kept looking at the percentage read indicator, and wondering when something would actually start happening. Rebecca ‘Bec’ Gray is a new mother to three-month old Jackson. She is almost totally blind. She lost her husband and her mother within the last year. This lady has a lot on her plate! With all that going on, I was at about the 20% completion mark that I finally felt like we were over the character introductions, and the detailed descriptions of widow’s grief that both she and her friend Crystal were suffering.

Bec starts to hear footsteps following her as she walks to the park. She finds her front door open upon her return from the park, and the baby’s play crib moved to the center of her living room. However, she still doubts what she has encountered and primarily passes it off as sleep deprivation. After one incident when she thought she heard footsteps in the house, she searches the house by herself, using a coat hanger to jab into the corners of rooms to find out if anyone was hiding there. Her friends at her new mother’s group and her grief group are not very helpful. In my opinion, they were too quick to pass off the strange occurrences as sleep deprivation also. After fainting and hitting her head, Bec agrees to rest at a friend’s house for a few hours. When Bec goes to check on Jackson after her rest, she is horrified to discover that the baby boy in the crib is not her Jackson. She has a hard time convincing anyone of the baby swap.

Then the to-ing and fro-ing started as Bec tries to find Jackson. It sounds like a great plot, but for some reason that I cannot exactly put my finger on I just did not feel too connected to any of the characters. Rebecca started to annoy pretty quickly. Internally I was shouting at her to trust herself and get more help. The book’s ending was too simply too neat. However, as I read the last page, I still had many unresolved questions about other unresolved incidents in the book. While this is a solid read, it is not a stellar read in my opinion.

I received a complimentary copy of this book from the publisher via NetGalley. These are my honest thoughts.

This book has such a compelling plot and sympathetic narrator you will not want to put it down! The author has done an amazing job putting us into the shoes of Bec as she is navigating the already arduous journey of new motherhood along with her new reality of blindness. Obviously those are stories in themselves except this book adds in Bec’s belief that the baby in her son’s crib is not her son. Would you believe a blind woman who claims this baby is not hers? What a riveting plot line!

Unfortunately I felt like the momentum of the book was dragged down by the shifting narration. We also have the POV of Bec’s friend Crystal who is juggling problems of her own. Crystal for me did not carry her chapters like Bec. I do think there were some plot points that are far fetched and others never explained well but overall this was a fun read. I received a complimentary copy of this book. Opinions expressed in this review are completely my own.