ME Myself and I Diary of a Psychic A Miracle Journey Surviving Chronic Illness by Nicky Alan

288 Pages
Publisher: John Hunt Publishing Ltd, www.6th-books.com
Release date: November 27, 2020

Nonfiction, Health, Mind, Body, Spirit, Religion, Spirituality, Self-Help, Self-Improvement-Self-Empowerment, Codependency, People Pleasing, Mediumship, Psychic

Nicky was a police office until a car accident ended her career. Since that was how she identified, she felt her life had no purpose. The author writes about her experience with chronic illness, fraud, and legal troubles. She had an abusive childhood, a bad relationship with “Dick,” and a chronic illness. I love how she describes living with chronic illness symptoms as body bingo. Every day you wonder what symptom is going to hurt or not work. Some days, she wallows and curses, but other days she triumphs.

She works with the spirits and angels for guidance and has discussions with her deceased father. She mentioned one of my favorite movies, “Sliding Doors,” where one quick act/decision can change the course of your life. The diary she writes is called a soul diary. I think she is brave to share it. It shows her vulnerabilities but also her courage. She has had a difficult life but has finally made the best of it.

Having M.E myself, I was really intrigued by this book.
I was hoping it might help me with my recovery.

However, I just didn't get on with Nicky Alan's writing style. I felt like they didn't know what their book was supposed to be. Was it diary of a psychic - focussing on the spiritual side. Or was it about the M.E?

Not for me - didn't enjoy this one!

This book is a real life story from a famous psychic called Nicky Alan. Nicky has M.E. and Fibromyalgia and in her book, which is like a diary, she explains what it was like for her when she was going through bad times while she was very sick with these illnesses. Reading her book and diary, I felt very sad for her, but I was also happy to see her strength and bravery and how she fought through every setback to overcome the bad times and set herself on the right path again. I was happy to read that Nicky is back at work again, even though she still has some illnesses. The main thing is that she is still fighting and she is still helping people through her spiritual work. She is an inspiration and a light in this world. I have looked her up on youtube since reading her book and it was nice to see her there chatting and doing her work. I am also a spiritual person so I am very interested in her work.

Many thanks to the author, publisher and Net Galley for allowing me to read this book in exchange for an honest review.

This book wasn't for me. Although I appreciate the author, publisher, and Netgalley for letting me read and review, I could not finish. Great concept, and I tried, but someone in her target audience might enjoy it more than I did.

My thanks to Netgalley and the publisher for my ecopy of M.E. Myself and I- Diary of a Psychic.

I have fibromyalgia and it has sometimes been suggested that I also have M.E. although I have never been as unwell as the author and many, many others, I had a certain amount of interest in this part of the book but it mostly caught my eye because of the psychic element.

My very first thought on starting to read the book was that more editing should have done, as the prologue starts with a very jarring grammatical error,and sadly my opinion remained the same throughout. The poor editing did not however, detract from my enjoyment of the book and it maybe that these problems will be corrected before publication.

I have a deep interest in spiritual matters and indeed was a student with another very well known Angel expert a couple of years ago.. During this time I came into contact with others who shared my interest. My physical health and my social anxiety played a small part in my withdrawing from these people but the main reason was that they all seemed to be kind, gentle people with a sunny, positive outlook and a deep, unwavering faith, and most seemed to have wonderful stories of visitations and miracles that regularly happened to them. I therefore felt that I was unworthy of communication from Angels or Spirits because I was not like them.

Nicky Alan has made me realise that being a shouty, sweary type whose faith sometimes falters is no barrier to a connection with the other side or the angelic realm. Having read and enjoyed her book I will now continue to consult the cards, persevere with my meditation practice and keep an open mind (and eye) with regards to synchronicity. I am grateful that Ms Alan felt guided to sharing her experiences, her lowest moments through to her euphoric times, in such a readable and relatable manner.

While I am convinced that author Nicky Alan suffered terribly with M.E. and fibromyalgia while also experiencing many personal betrayals, she is not a totally sympathetic heroine of her own story. Her downward spiral is aided by poor decision making (drug and alcohol use, bad men, etc) and a failure to take charge of her own life--all of this most likely exacerbated by severe abuse as a child.

The text, interspersed with diary entries from the years the author was in the deepest depths of suffering, could benefit from some editing and structure. It reads like a stream of consciousness. Based on the title, I assumed the psychic aspects of the author's life would be emphasized, but not so much.

The message that sufferers of long time illness can ultimately get their lives back on an even keel is worthwhile, but there are titles out there that are more effective than this one.

Full Disclosure--NetGalley and the publisher provided me with a digital ARC of this book. This is my honest review.

First off, Alan’s memoir is worth reading and those walking the spiritual path will recognize many truths. I did, however, feel that a heavier editing hand was needed. For example, M.E. is part of the book’s title, and the author assumes that the reader knows what this is. I did NOT. After Googling it, I saw that it is another name for chronic fatigue syndrome, with which I AM familiar. A brief description up front of what M.E. And fibromyalgia are would have served the reader and the story well. Also, there is a great deal of repetition in the book. After a few descriptions of the author’s physical pains, I had an understanding of her suffering. Yet those descriptions and her venting about it went on and on and I began to skim those sections. Ditto the word-for-word transcripts of the angel cards she often pulled. Again, an editor could have made these sections more concise and powerful. As it was, I had to sift through a lot to get to the inspiring heart of Alan’s journey.

My thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for an A4C.

As a fellow M.E/Fibro sufferer, I was immediately attracted to the title of this book. Most of us who are dealing with a chronic illness of any kind come to learn that finding others going through the same thing is both healing and affirming. Too many of us face the misunderstanding and downright ignorant attitudes of others, and so hearing our thoughts and experiences spoken by another helps us to feel less alone. In this Nicky Alan comes up trumps, as she shares the ups and downs of life with this condition, often with startling honesty. She lays all bare, especially in the excerpts from her soul journals, ensuring that the reader sees just how she felt in the moment, rather than having things softened by hindsight.

From what I have discovered over the past few years battling this condition, much of what Nicky writes about will be relatable to others. Whilst the specifics of the traumas that she has lived through are unique to her, the emotional damage and destructive coping strategies that developed are universal to everyone. We all have trauma in our lives, and many people who develop M.E. share common traits such as low self-esteem, people pleasing and perfectionist tendencies, and an inability to put themselves first. Until, that is, their body gives them no choice but to do that. And often it takes us years to stop fighting and learn to surrender to what our bodies are telling us they need, something which Nicky again highlights so well in her journey.

What I loved most about the book, however, are the spiritual threads woven throughout it. As I read the book I felt the call to reconnect with the Angels after many, many years of shutting them out. Nicky doesn't offer a "do this and you will be healed" attitude, as even when things panned out exactly as the Angels and her Guides and spirit family had suggested they might, she still had to face numerous battles. But what she does promise is that if you open up to the possibility of something better then amazing things can and do happen.

I managed to read this book in just over a day, which is practically unheard of for me as chronic migraines are my biggest issue and they make reading for long stretches of time impossible. But I just could not put this book down, I wanted to find out how things panned out. And then I went onto YouTube and looked up an Archangel Michael meditation Nicky had recorded, which was a lovely way to begin to open up to them more. If you are struggling with any kind of chronic illness and have even the slightest openness to the spiritual realms, this book is well worth a read.