A witty, engaging and moving autobiography from Alexandra Billings, the narrative is a selection of small chapters in rough chronological order. I actually enjoyed this approach, sometimes there was so much to absorb that having bite size chapters made it easier. If you prefer a more straight forward narrative then this may not be for you. She has had quite the life and the early parts in particular are full of abuse, trauma and addiction. Not always easy to read but very open and honest. I found the section where she finally makes it to Hollywood and the prejudice she faces quite illuminating as to why our films are not more diverse.

With thanks to the publisher and to NetGalley for an Arc in exchange for an honest review.

I was drawn to Alexandra Billings' book because I moved to Chicago in the 1980's and remember her from her stage work as well as her "drag" work at Baton Show Lounge. This was a time when laws did not protect someone who was LGBTQ in terms of jobs, housing, etc. To be trans at that time meant you did not fit in anywhere including the broader gay community and also faced bias and discrimination there as well. The 1980's as we all know, was the beginning of the AIDS crisis when a plague ripped through the community yet no one knew what it was "a gay cancer?" and the drug cocktail to treat it didn't appear on the scene until the early 1990's. In the meantime, Scott Billings is a kid growing up in a suburb of Chicago who is trying to find their identity and acceptance. After a very challenging journey of addiction, abuse and homelessness, Scott eventually finds their true identity and the love of their life. Eventually Alexandra ends up with success on Television (in Transparent) after painfully losing the lead role in Transamerica to Felicity Huffman. They have also continued to have success on stage and screen. Having seen Alexandra Billings on stage in the late 1980's/early 1990's and then following their career, I was always struck at their stage presence and charisma.

This is an incredibly poignant, candid account of their journey with all of its many ups and downs. I feel like I really got to know Alexandra as a person and am grateful that they openly shared their struggles and triumphs.
I recommend this book.