I really felt like I was on the journey investigating with her. I loved it.
PI able to uncover and investigate but realizes she over her head. From there. I pretty much checked out. She lost confidence and so did I.

Thank you to @netgalley and @flatironbooks for a free copy of this book in exchange for my honest review. Thank you to @macmillan.audio for a free download of the audiobook.

Erika Krouse has one of those faces that makes people tell her things. People open up to her about their most intimate secrets. This led her into a career of being a PI. The story she works on in this book is a rape scandal that took place at a university in Colorado. This memoir talks about her personal and professional relationships as she works this case. It is raw and honest in how she feels for the victims and the loss she takes when the case is closed.

I was thankful for the audio version as I’m not sure I would have finished reading the book. Not because of the story, it felt disjointed at times. The case itself was fascinating!

3.5 stars – Rounding to 4 for Goodreads

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It kinda gave me vibes of Veronica Mars but it was very different. As a naive investigator she makes a lot of mistakes but still a very enjoyable storyline and case.

Thank you Netgalley for this audio edition of Tell Me Everything, by Erika Krouse.

Erika Krouse has one of those faces. The kind of face that makes you immediately want to start talking to her. People have been opening up to Erika about the most intimate parts of their lives since she can remember. It seems to be her superpower. So it's no surprise when she is offered the job as a private investigator. But it's a whole other thing listening to the stories of victims, especially victims of horrific sexual assault, which is one of the first cases she takes on.

In this memoir, Krouse tells us about being part of a huge college sexual assault case, her professional and personal relationships, and her attempts at keeping sanity and normalcy during a hugely tumultuous time in her life. It's honest, raw, heartbreaking, and astounding! I was blown away by some of the things she has taken on and overcome.

The book at times felt a bit disjointed. Sometimes I was asking myself what the overall point of the story was boiling down to. But I also really appreciate that sometimes a story just needs to be told without having a solid center. It's just that, a story. I enjoyed this very much.

Did not finish, this content was more triggering than expected. I think it would be important for others to read but not for me.

DNF. Unfortunately, this was a book I started multiple times but could just not get into. I appreciate having the opportunity to read this book, it was just not a good fit for me as a reader. Thank you to the publisher and NetGalley for my gifted review copy.

I enjoyed the beginning of this story, but quickly lost interest. Audio perhaps wasn't the best choice for me for this book. I will try the written book.

Thank you to NetGalley for the audio version of this book. I espically love memoirs. This book is about a woman who has a face that people just open up to and talk. She takes this talent and starts to work for a under cover investigation company. The investigation outfit decides to take on a very big not brought to the light at the time about how althets at the time were able to get away with rapping their collage peers. then when the women would go to the police and the school officals they women were made out to be the monsters when in actuality it was the althetes who are the monsters. She works hard and helps to bring to light what women went through. It really is a facinating story to read about.

this memoir cum true-crime book is so wonderful. the author creates a seamless balance between the mystery and her own life. it is truly a masterpiece in writing, genre blending and voice. I love this.

(4.5⭐️) Completely riveting. I couldn’t listen to this audiobook fast enough.

Krouse has always been used to people telling her everything. She has a face that encourages it somehow. But the more she got immersed in other people’s stories, particularly the landmark case she was assigned to as a new PI, she realized that her own story still burned hot within.

In a blend of the personal and professional, Krouse creates a book that is part memoir and part true crime expose. She lays bare her own struggles to overcome sexual assault while also recounting her PI work investigating a college football program and the numerous sexual assaults alleged against its players.

I found both aspects of this novel to be equally enthralling and heart wrenching in a way they might not have been if told singularly. Krouse’s dedication and passion for the job combined with her own trauma and healing sets this novel apart from others.

In a story like this, I typically prefer the author as narrator. But Gabra Zackman’s delivery felt every bit as intimate and personal. I would highly recommend the audiobook.

Thank you to Erika Krouse, Flat Iron Books, and MacMillan Audio for this #gifted copy.

Really incredible storytelling — an important story to tell! It feels weird to say i "enjoyed" the book, it's more like I appreciated everything Erika went through to help victims, and her own process of healing. She's also just a great writer, and I think that made the whole experience too. Loved the narrator!

First of all ... just, wow.

This is one of the best reading experiences I've had in a long time. I both read and listened to this one, and have to say that not since Ben Winters' 'Underground Airlines' have I been equally awed by the writing as I have been by the narrative performance in the audiobook.

But ... about this book:
Erika Krouse is an extraordinary writer. Billed as a memoir with artistic and creative license to convey the zeitgeist of the investigation, she delivered precisely what was promised. In both the reading and listening experience, I got a sense not only of Erika as she was then, but of the world as it was. The setting was pre- #MeToo when women who spoke out about sexual harassment and violence were still almost certain to be either disbelieved or blamed. And to make matters worse, it centered on occurrences on a university campus where football was the crown jewel of the kingdom and the players were kings. Young women in the orbit of the team---be it as trainers, or fellow students--were assumed to be jersey-chasers, groupies, or, even if neither of those things, sexually available to the players at their whim; because even without consent, there would be no consequences. In one particularly egregious example of this, a young woman, passed out in her own bed, at a party that was meant to be a girls' night, is raped by almost 10 players, held immobile by some while sexually assaulted by others.

After the DA mind-bogglingly declines to prosecute, enter Erika, who at the time was an impoverished writer of minor acclaim casting about in temp positions trying to figure out her life. One of Erika's greatest assets is her uncanny ability to tease out confidences from strangers. A chance encounter with an attorney in a bookstore where he confesses to her something he has told no one else leads him to hire her on the spot as a private investigator, charged primarily with interviewing witnesses. After a few months, when the sexual assault case at the university comes up, Erika is assigned to find and interview witnesses, so a Title IX case can be made against the school. She accepts hesitantly, because of her own history of sexual trauma, but before long she is immersed in seeking justice and acknowledgment for the women who were assaulted. And along the way, she realizes that through this case, she's also seeking acknowledgment and justice for herself and all she suffered as a child.

This memoir was engaging for so many reasons: first of all it forces readers to immediately feel a stake in the story and outcome, and to be intrigued by Erika's uncommon talent for making people share cofidences. Later, you become even more invested, in not only seeing her unravel the layers of deception and avoidance of responsibility for the rape(s) of the young women, but in unraveling her own mother's reluctance to admit culpability for what happened to Erika as a young girl. Finally, you can't help but root for Erika who, as an adult woman, almost heartbreakingly attributes some of her best qualities to her trauma and refuses to accept herself as deserving of love. Part of you wants to tell her that she is more than the sum of the worst things that happened to her. Then, you follow her through the journey toward making that discovery herself.

Also ... achingly beautiful writing. Not that common in a memoir, but to call it a literary work is not an overstatement. So much insight and heart; and countless insightful moments. Highly recommended. If you read one memoir this year, this should be it.

My rating: ⭑⭑⭑⭑⭑+

I am so glad that I was able to do the audio of this one!! I really enjoyed the story telling style. It was heartbreaking and beautiful.

This was an eye opening experience. I had no idea this kind of thing was going on in college sports. I think everyone needs to read this. It reads like a novel and is engaging throughout. The author shares some of her personal life here as well, and it is just as interesting as her investigations. Some of the content of this book is hard to read, but it's an important read. I really enjoyed the audio version, as the narrator is excellent. I'm thankful for people who bring the evils of the world to light and help bring justice to those who were harmed. Well done.

I don’t read a ton of memoirs but I’ve been trying to branch out with my genres. When I saw that this was a memoir with a true crime angle I knew it was one I had to read. Man, was this story so frustrating!! It is not easy to hear the survivors’ stories about their abuse while knowing that their abusers were never prosecuted. Krause does a great job weaving her own story with the true crime part and connecting it all together. Some of her statements were too self-congratulatory for me and I completely disagreed with using pseudonyms for the team members/staff (keep the pseudonyms for the victims) because I think they need some accountability. Overall a good mashup of genres that any true crime fan should read.

*received for free from netgalley for honest review* I was too young to remember most of the time this book took place so it was very interesting, would consider reading more books on the subject if i came across any.

This book was very triggering, so survivors should proceed with caution. I have mixed feelings on this. It felt like multiple stories in one and not all of them wove together well.

The story of the case was fascinating in a disturbing way. I was intrigued to learn the investigative details. I actually also enjoyed the science mixed in - I learned a lot and researched some more on my own. Some of the historical info and info on other cases mixed in seemed a bit random. I struggled with the author’s point of view throughout. Parts I truly believed and sympathized with strongly… other parts seemed completely unbelievable… and almost all of it could have been removed to strengthen the bottom line of the book.

This was a good book to listen to on audio, and despite my mixed feelings, I would recommend this book because the details of rape culture were well presented and eye opening. Thank you to NetGalley & Macmillan Audio for allowing me to review this audiobook!

This was SO good. An unexpected mix of memoir and true crime, and it really worked. It was upsetting and frustrating and despicable, but this was a story that deserved to be told and I’m so glad I got to experience this author and this book. Brilliant.

Tell Me Everything was a riveting memoir. Beautifully narrated with so much emotion, I could not stop listening and finished this in a single day.

I have been back an forth about rating this book either a 4 or a 5 star. I ended up settling on 5 starts because the writing is fantastic and the author tells us a very important story. This book is part narrative fiction about the sexual abuse of women by the football team of the University of Colorado. The cover up by the school and the legal investigation and law suits as a result. It is also a memoir about the author's sexual abuse as a child, the resulting complex relationship with her mother, who dismissed it, and the hurt and pain that stayed with her through her adult life. It is a story about relationships with family members, friends, spouse, boss, and others. At times the book is difficult to get through because of the subject matter, but the fluidity of the language makes it an outstanding read. Thank you to Flatiron Books/Macmillan Audio and NetGalley for the ARC in exchange for my honest opinion.