This can be a challenge to read at times- both because it moves around from place to place and because it's a searing portrait of a woman coping as best she can with mental illness, Portia has been struggling with bipolar since the age of 13. She met Nathan shortly after she was released from the hospital at age 20 and they built a life and family together. Now though, she's tired of the way her meds make her feel and she's stopped taking them, which horrifies and frightens Nathan when he discovers it. So it's back to the mental health facility,. Portia's music, her relationship with her band mate, her dealings with her physician, all form her psyche. Thanks to Netgalley for the ARC. A very good, thought provoking read,

Portia is a young mother married to a prosecutor and a member of a band. As she begins to discover newfound feelings for Theo, the drummer of her band, her husband tries to put a stop to any possible affair by trying to prove that her bipolar disorder is the root cause of her recent behavior, causing her to agree to be committed to a psychiatric hospital.

Reminding me slightly of The Bell Jar, this novel was both heartbreaking and eye-opening. Forced to face her innermost demons, the fever dream of Portia’s current reality was, at times, intoxicating and confusing.

There is so much going on in this novel that I had a hard time following Portia at times. I had many moments where I was questioning where her mind was wandering.

Overall, this novel is very engaging with a somewhat heavy subject matter. I highly recommend it.

The publisher provided ARC via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.

I absolutely loved reading this book. I was completely drawn into the topic and could not stop reading it.