This is an emotional but very interesting memoir. The author shares her experiences dealing with her child's diagnosis with leukemia. There were some great anecdotal stories and comments that I think could help other families going through difficult medical journeys. The narration was well done and I enjoyed listening to this audiobook. Thanks to netgalley and the publisher.

This book was very informative of a child going through cancer. There were so many ups and downs for this mother and child. The mother had a lot of hurt and guilt for not helping her child sooner. It made me realize how short life is and you need to live it to the fullest

A powerful and emotional memoir detailing the author's journey following her son's diagnosis of leukaemia at the age of 4. Dr Post-White details her emotions as a mother alongside sharing her insights as an oncology nurse and researcher. The ways in which her professional experiences impact on the way she handles her relationship with her son is explored in fascinating detail.
The book also shares the experiences of her son by referring to the drawings he did throughout his treatment.
This is beautifully written and the audiobook narrator brought the memoir to life adding a real sense of the process the family endured.
I am grateful to Netgalley and the publishers for an audio copy of this book and am leaving my honest review voluntarily.

Standing at Water's Edge: A Cancer Nurse, Her Four-Year-Old Son and the Shifting Tides of Leukemia
By Janice Post-White, Narrated by Melanie Carey

This story is such an insightful and informative book of living with a child who has cancer. I could feel all the uncertainty, the hope for a successful outcome, and the fear of the worst to come. Throughout all the ups and downs of life going on despite life coming to a halt for time consuming, energy draining, cancer therapy, there is also the constant sense of guilt for not doing something differently, for not catching things sooner, for not seeing what was right there flashing a neon light for all to see. Or at least that is what a parent might tell themselves, they should have seen, they should have known, they should have done differently.

This same guilt and self recrimination can raise its ugly head through all of life (and death) though and finding a way to deal with those feelings is so very important. Janice Post-White makes that so clear as she goes back over her past where she'd learned early on to tamp down and cover up feelings so that by the time her son was diagnosed with leukemia she felt she should know how to navigate this impossible journey better than others. She was an oncology nurse yet here she was loaded with professional tools when it came to cancer but weighed down by the grief and guilt of any parent who wonders why this happened to their child.

Somewhere in all of this type of misery, whether it is losing a child, parent, or sibling, we have to remember and accept our humanness before we can heal from the hurts of the past and present. As much as it hurt to read of the suffering of Janice's family and other families, especially those whose children succumbed to cancer or other illnesses, I so appreciate her thoughts and insight. She doesn't have all the answers but just listening to the audiobook and hearing her doubts, her questions, her ponderings, and her attempts to come to grips with what was happening has given me a lot to think about in my own life. We all have things from out past that affect how we deal with our todays and tomorrows and we can at least work on healing our future, one day at a time.

I'm so glad I listened to the audiobook because the narration was excellent. I had no idea what Janice sounds like but the narrator, Melanie became the voice of Janice for me, she fit my picture so well. And I really do have a picture of Janice because she's on the cover of the book with her son, Brandon.

Thank you to BooksGoSocial Audio and NetGalley for this ARC.