That's gonna be a no for me....

I was earnestly very excited for this book, but even before the first chapter was through, I had a bad feeling about it. For transparency sake, I am a white, US based reviewer and am aware of the 1 star brigade this author experienced as a reaction to being an Asian Author. While I really hated this book, I plan on reading the other installment(s) after reviews are posted and will give other titles a shot as well. There were good ideas here, but I had too many issues with the content and execution.

Main issues: The "romance", world building, dialogue, monologue, lack of action.

I think everyone else has done a great job of discussing why the "romance" is problematic, so I won't dive into that too much. As an abuse survivor, reading it definitely made me uncomfortable and furious, I kept waiting for her to have been deceiving him into false security. But no, she's actually into it. Let's maybe leave romanticizing Stockholm Syndrome behind next time. My spouse lost family in the Nanjing Massacre and was absolutely livid when I was describing this book to him... Considering the amount of psychological, emotional, and physical abuse Ruying is put through by Antony, and then having it romanticized, this should not be graded YA... teens should not think this behavior is acceptable or normal from a partner.

The worldbuilding felt like it was supposed to be reminiscent of Nimona, a meeting of medieval China and cyberpunk... but it wasn't fledged out at all and was so confusing to digest with the little information given. It really broke the suspension of disbelief that Pangu (China) is given a fantastic name, but then we have ROME. Rome in helicopters and slinging guns? Like modern warfare Rome complete with hyper Latin names, statuesque blonde curls and handsome noses.

-Side note- This infuriated me on a historical level as well, like if the whole story is going to be a fantasy version of the Opium Wars and Japanese Occupation, why are we taking all agency away from Japan (who has denied these horrors and shrugged off responsibility IRL) and making the only enemies and enactors of violence Europeans??? Yes, Russia inflicted genocide upon Guandong Indigenous groups(1600s), and squished the region into the conflict with Qing (1850s) (extreme oversimplification here), but that was unrelated to the Japanese occupation (1890s) and Unit 731 (1930s) that is specifically detailed in the Author's Note?

Okay sorry, history student rant over. Anyways. The Pangulings have absolutely zero grasp of "science" even after years of exposure to it? Which felt very colonial. And science is always spoken of like "the pokemans" or "the google", in a weird mystification of sorts (but China was & is one of the world leaders in tech and math, inventions, etc- this grinded me so bad). There's no real explaining where Rome is, they arrive via sky portals (which wasn't really made clear until towards the end), and there are references to "their world"... but then it's made to sound like they're on the same planet? This vague reference happens 2/3 through and threw me completely off. Do they have spaceships that were not talked about? What is going on?

The dialogue is either boring or immature, and much of the book is internal monologue of repetitive information dumps or rehashing traumatic events. I caught myself skimming (ADHD, if the brain isn't engaged it just happens) a few times and had to reread to make sure I didn't miss anything vital, but usually it ended up being the same description of an event or thought process that occurred a chapter or two back. Maybe that was an element of it being YA? I'm not sure.

The description got me amped up for a high-action, dangerous fantasy (originally assumed that Baihu was the enemy-lover) but most of the action happens off-screen. There are a few fight scenes, but we only really see one assassination and it's not... it's not action driven. Once I learned that these hyped up assassinations were her own people, I didn't want to see that anyways.

Thank you Netgalley for a shot at this ARC. Like I said, I'll read the next installment to see if any of the many criticisms are acknowledged and still try other titles from this Author.

First of all, I must thank Ballantine Books and Netgalley for the opportunity to read this ARC! It is quite unfortunate that I am unable to finish this book, but I am still thankful for the time given to try it out.

There is a lot going for this book. I'm a big fan of Asian-based fantasy, in this case, Chinese-based, and I know many other people agree by the general popularity of this genre. To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods by Molly X. Chang has a unique take on this genre, incorporating sci-fi elements somewhat seamlessly and proposing an interesting perspective on cross-world colonialism (affirmed to be based on real-life colonialism) in an alternate universe in which the Roman empire has endured and has been modernized with guns and machines. The world-building is really good, and while in some areas there was a bit too much exposition or repeated facts, overall I found myself intrigued by the premise and ready to dive in.

For all this good, I really, really, wanted to like this book. However, I just don't think it was for me. At first, when I realized I was procrastinating reading it, I thought it was because I was just distracted by other things in my life. But when I sat down and tried to get through it, I realized it was my gut telling me I wasn't interested. The premise is interesting and the writing wasn't bad by far. As I read, though, I found myself wondering when things were going to pick up. When I reached the halfway point of my ARC and felt like barely anything had happened, my gut sank and I knew this was a DNF for me. The pacing wasn't terrible, but ultimately I needed a bit more hook to keep me going. I liked the different chapter lengths, that definitely helped. But the content didn't match. The first half of the book is summarized by a few repeating factors: Ruying's moral dilemma about using her power, her need to protect the people she loves, and the awfulness that is Roman occupation in her world. After a while, I just felt tired of seeing the same thing written in different ways over and over. Every time Ruying had a moment of introspection these 3 factors were hammered home. Typically this issue in writing is a move of distrust by the author that the reader doesn't understand what the author wants to say. My own interpretation was that of a lack of content to work with. The author has the world and the plot but is unable to give away too much, leaving her to just repeat basic information back at the reader.

I wish I could've pushed through more, but life got in the way a bit. I don't think this is a terrible book nor is it terrible writing. In fact, I found the word choice and language quite strong and inspiring. And as I said earlier, I really enjoyed the world-building and what I saw of the plot seemed very intriguing. However, it just wasn't meant to be. For this reason, I gave the book 3.5 stars.

2.5 ⭐️ This had so much potential.


My Thoughts:

It is hard to write an overall review for this book because I was in love with the idea of this book, however the execution fell off a cliff for me.

I loved:

Concept
I loved the concept of having powers of Death as a power. I was very interested to see if this would be done in a similar concept to the Poppy War trilogy with the use of drugs or be a born trait closer to Grisha universe. It turned out to be a mixture of the two, but sadly was just not explored enough.

The things I disliked
World Building
Many of the issues of this book come from the world building itself especially due to the vagueness. Due to how the book is written, this book could fall into the “historical fantasy” or “urban fantasy” genre instead of a sci-fi fantasy genre that I believe the author intended. When falling into either “historical fantasy” or “urban fantasy,” this book is led into failure.
Historical Fantasy. If this book is thought of as more of a historical fantasy especially based on the beginning intro the author gives of how this was inspired by her grandfather’s stories of Manchuria, then this story does not have the research and delicacy of diving into a traumatic history. I hate comparing it to the Poppy War trilogy but it is the best example I can think of with not romanticizing a sensitive subject. Manchuria experiments are a highly triggering and sensitive subject, which the author uses for shock value and a “plot twist” that was given to the reader and the main character in multiple lines so it should not have been dove into with such reckless care. The Poppy War trilogy is critiqued for the use of trauma from an event in a blunt manner, however I think To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods might have used a traumatic event in a worse manner. Using a highly sensitive event to make the main character choose to turn on the “villain” who is her colonizing love interest is a pathetic use of a sensitive topic. It can be argued that this is a fantasy book that is not pulling from those events, and it is a made up world. This issue with this argument is the usage of concepts from the modern present day that would only exist in our world such as “radio” or “romeo and juliet.” The author is highly inconsistent in her world building, which stems from the majority of the issues of this book.
Urban Fantasy. The issue with this book being made as urban fantasy is the author clearly intended for the book to not take place on “earth” as a modern day. She has difficulty pulling away from modern concepts consistently in the book which pulls the reader out of the fantasy world, and places them in modern day. This lies the issue of mixing historical events with modern day concepts, as the reader will relate them to modern day instead of author’s “fantasy world.” The author can still have the magical concepts she wanted if she had turned the book into Urban Fantasy and committed to the act, a great example of this is the Jade City trilogy that uses more of an urban fantasy approach with Asian culture.
Sci Fi Fantasy. I believe the author planned her world to be a sci fi world that was not connected to the real world. This would have been the perfect placement of the book if the execution focus of this book had been world building instead of romance. The issue lies in the fact that world building and science is so vague that the reader does not feel transformed into a different society the way that Red Rising gives. If more world building and scientific reasoning was given in the book, the sensitive topics of experiments related to Manchuria would have felt more separate for the reader.

Love Interest/ Colonization Romance
I think many of the negative reviews focus on the love interest/romance of this book. Colonization romances have been on the rise, and they seem to be in fantasy books that are not labeled as “dark romance.” Instead these romances get labeled as the villain is morally gray, but in reality this is stockholm. It could have been argued that it was not a romance, but a fight for survival with friendship until the last 30% of the book. The downfall was the author attempting to give Antony a tragic backstory, and a POV. In his POV, Antony confesses his love over and over again in different ways, while speaking of how she will hate him for the horrible actions that he is doing. SPOILER, those actions line up with the horrible experiments that were done in Manchuria. This lies the main issue of this romance, Antony is not morally gray; he is simply a monster. The author did not spend enough time to develop a contrast between stockholm romance and insta-love. I believe that the author wanted Ruying to fall in love with the villain in a more stockholm survival aspect, and in the end betray him. The development of this wasn’t done, instead it came off as insta-love with a colonizer. This colonizer who has her murdering her own people, has her wearing a shock collar and allows his people to sneer/abuse her.



Overall, I think the book did not get the support it needed for a debut author. The author had great ideas, and great concepts however the execution was so poorly done.


Thank you Netgalley and Del Rey for providing an eARC in exchange for an honest review! As always, all opinions are my own.

I want to preface this by saying thank you for this arc. I ended up DNF at 40%, I don’t think I am the intended audience.

I find this book slow boring and repetitive. The storyline was also starting to give Pocahontas vibes & I didn’t like that. The first 20% of this book was spent on her fetching medicine for her sister and an attempt at world building and background stories that left me more confused and uninterested. The next 10% was her being stuck in prison… then, finally she was struck a deal to “save” herself and her family/friends with the colonizer prince. I’ve lost my interest by then.

That being said, thank you for giving me a chance at this arc!

This book is perfect for fans of poppy war with a more modern/sci-fi twist. The book follows our main character, Ruying, as she becomes an assassin with her death magic. Ruying is your stereotypical brash and naive heroine who finds herself striking a bargain with a prince from another world called Rome. These high tech Romans have come and colonized her world. The authors note does mention the book being about China’s Century of Humiliation and immigration while specifically mentioning unit 731. So be warned that there are some darker elements to this story.

The author’s writing style consisted a lot of inner narration and monologue. I found the style to be easy to read and finished the book in one day. Although the synopsis of this book hints at romance, I would not categorize the this book as a romance. This book is more about political plotting and scheming of a court and trying to out maneuver others to get what you want and protect those that you love. For more experienced fantasy readers the book may be a little predictable but there are some good twists woven in.

I would recommend this to fans of the Poppy Wars or anyone who enjoys fantasy with a little splash of science fiction.

Thank you to NetGalley and DelRey for sending this book for review consideration. All opinions are my own.

Thank you to Netgalley for providing me with an ARC of this story
SPOILERS TO FOLLOW

*I'm going to edit this later to add quotes to my review for the examples I'm about to give. I don't want to put the quotes now though because I'm not sure what I'm allowed to share since this is an ARC and the quotes may or may not have changed so I will compare them to my physical copy when it arrives.*

I'm sure many of you (If you follow Booktok/Booktwitter closely know about everything that happened with Molly and that other author I refuse to mention who was incredibly racist toward Molly but I'm not here to talk about that. What I do plan to talk about is what happened after. I've followed Molly for a while (even before that author debacle) because I'd heard about her publishing deal and the story sounded great! I was hyped for it and emphasized with her when everything started to go down. To my surprise, not long after what I'm sure was a completely terrible experience for Molly, I saw a lot of criticism over her novel being thrown her way.

Most of this criticism centered around the main characters Ruying and Antony. People were discussing how Molly had written a colonizer romance (Antony is a Roman and has come from a different world to enslave/decimate the Pangu people using drugs and weapons) and how this narrative was very harmful towards the Asian community, (as well as other communities that have also been colonized by white people). Molly ended up writing a few tweets about how her story is NOT a colonizer romance and the context of the story would show this. I couldn't find the tweet I was looking for to backup my point (so unless I dreamed it) but I remembered reading a tweet from Molly that said something along the lines of, "The next story in this saga is called To Kill A Wicked Prince. Do with that what you will." So with that tweet in mind (if anyone has proof of that tweet I'd love to see it but I could not find it), I decided to go into the story with the mindset that Ruying DOES NOT love Prince Antony and that she is a victim of her circumstances. Because of this, I saw the story so much clearer than the people who believe it to be a colonizer romance.

Ruying does not love Antony and I say this with my whole chest because I watched Antony manipulate her over and over and over until she felt like she was safe with him. But a false sense of security does not equate love. I can not blame her for seeking comfort in him and his empty promises. Antony threatened her family from the very beginning and Ruying mistook his money and his protection as anything other than another way to control her, to keep her living with the fear that it could disappear. Meiya and Baihu argued with her over and over that she wasn't doing this for peace of for her family but for herself. "So what if I am? There is no sin in wanting to live, in wanting a better life for those I love." Who wouldn't fall victim to Antony though? Especially after the manipulation tactics he applied to make her believe he was going to save her and her people from destruction.

Ruying was also clearly terrified from the beginning of what it would mean to be on the other side of Rome's attention. If she wasn't Antony's guard then she was nothing more than something to be discarded. She is in constant turmoil with herself over what she's doing, struggling between wanting to trust Antony and knowing that she CAN'T trust him because he doesn't fully trust her. "His words were like sweet lies. I wanted these melodies to sing true. I wanted to linger in the world he painted so badly. But Antony couldn't make me a hero. If I stayed loyal to him, I would never be a hero to my people. Not after what I did." There was very little romance between them. Lingering gazes, and small touches barely mean anything. The two of them only kissed once and it was so brief and short it was barely there and Ruying's immediate thought afterwards was, "When tomorrow came, we could never be this close again. Because Antony Augustus was my people's enemy. Nothing could ever change this." Those are not the thoughts of someone head over heels in love. The only reason she's conflicted is because she wants to believe he's a god person even though she knows he's not.

Ruying wanted to believe Antony's lies so bad that she tried to convince herself that killing for him was better than fighting for herself, fighting for freedom for her people. She wanted to live and wanted to help her family and I think a lot of people in her position would find themselves in the same situation as her. "I thought I had to do this for them. For us. For survival. But if I was really doing this for them, I wouldn't fight on the side of our enemy."

I don't know if it was because I went in with the mindset that I couldn't trust Antony, but I didn't believe a word he said the entire novel. Especially after Taohau was never mentioned again I knew that something bad happened. I knew the other should would drop and Ruying would finally see him clearly and be able to shake herself free of him. Nobody should believe this is a colonizer romance after Antony gloats TO HER FACE, "You almost can't blame my people for what we are doing" about the genocide of her own people! Did these people even read the same story I did? Even in Antony's own POV I hated him (there's only one chapter of it) and it didn't endear me to him at all. If anything it made me hate him more because of how he talked about Ruying.

Anyways, this was longer than I anticipated. Overall I truly enjoyed the story. I really liked the magic and the world building. It was like a fantasy world crossed with futuristic one. I'm interested how Rome managed to dimension hop(??) and if that will be explained in the other installments. I'm also curious to see if this mysterious third younger brother will make an appearance in the story. I wanted to see more of Meiya but what we got of her was brilliant. The angry, younger sibling (who will probably not make it until the end of the series judging on a few factors) who wants to save the world is always a fun trope! I also truly think Ruying's real love interest will make an appearance in the second novel. (It's either going to be The Phantom or Baihu himself.) I think the next novel will show more of Ruying trying to break free from Anotony and trying to help her people and I can't wait!

DNF. I had really been looking forward to this, but the prose style was excruciating with the choppy construction, and it was one interminable infodump. I like gradual world-building when it’s done right, but this was like reading a summary or plot outline with no character to speak of. If the first chapter had been like that, fine, but even the action sequences were lopped off in weird ways.

I feel bad, because the author’s note made it seem like this story is dear to the author’s heart, but this didn’t work for me at all.

I have very mixed opinions about this book.

The writing style is not even close to my preferred style; however, I talk this way. My sentences are fragmented, I repeat myself a lot to convey my point, and I tend to be overly-dramatic. As such, I could follow along just fine. I don't like reading purple prose, nor do I enjoy how bleak and contemplative the book was. Nowhere in the book did I feel joy or the true hint of love. I only felt sadness, guilt, and pain... And there was only any real development in the last 25% of the book. For the most part, we were just amping up the misery and the "hints of romance."

The romance bit is played off as a colonizer romance. It is arguably not one though. The entire time, she's recognizing more of the human within Antony. This is the part of him that warrants sympathy. Whether he's doing it on purpose or not, I don't know, but it works on her. She doesn't feel sorry for him as his people are genuinely all that is bad and horrendous. She does understand what it's like to know pain and fear, and to be willing to do whatever it takes to care and protect her loved ones. Mind you, when push comes to shove Ru can't really do "whatever it takes." For most of the story, Ru waffles. She's grasping at straws. Come the end, we see her come to some harder truths - not just about Antony, but about herself. And it's because of these ultimate choices that I would push back on the colonizer romance bit.

This book has romantic notions, but I didn't feel any romance between the characters. I only felt a level of kinship found between two folks who have similar emotional/mental/physical scars. Both know poverty, both know abuse by loved ones, both are facing the potential demise of their civilizations. The more they open up to one another, the easier it is to confuse vulnerability as intimacy- and thus, to think there's a romance budding. While we don't know the true direction of this book series, in this moment I would argue that this is not a colonizer romance. But I do understand why folks would be upset with it even being a suggestion.

I did read an ARC that was an unfinished draft, but the amount of repetition was a little too much. There also was a random Antony POV. I'm not certain why it was just the one chapter... I'm not even certain it was needed. I also don't know why we got Phantom of the Opera being hinted at... (The Phantom is a mysterious rebellious leader, and all of his people are called the Masks. And yes, they wear masks.)

From what I gather, this is a lot like Ancient China, but the Romans are from another planet (through a portal) who are very much like our modern-day world. I don't know if this was done so that we could feel more for the Roman cause? I mean, yeah, our current life situations are garbage, but that's not going to give me the green light to go wreck another world's life...

All in all, the book was full of purple prose written in a very bleak and contemplative way. There were no happy moments, no break in misery... It was just guilt, shame, pain, anger, potential romance - but denied romance, and distrust. Nothing was resolved except for her personal resolve, when she finally stopped waffling at the way end of the book. And I really just have no real connection to any of the characters.

I am honestly surprised I read the book in its entirety. I think it's because the world Ru lives in is so fascinating. The last 25% of the book was what I had been holding out for, so I'm glad I got to read it. I think it's because every now and then we got quotes like this, "Antony Augustus was not a religious man, but he would worship at her altar, kneel for her in eternity." Or, "'Maybe one day I'll deserve you.' And maybe one day, I'll learn to forgive."

Both of these quotes make their connection lead more on the romance side, though the second one does a great job of making it clear that they were not going to be in a relationship anytime soon (if at all). The first one makes me wonder if this is going to be a series about how the gal can change the man. If that is the case, then that's in poor choice.

I hope he'll want to change because she inspires him to overcome this shady life, but I also hope she keeps refusing him. He's a colonizer. He could have found a way to help the rebels. He could have decided to ASK people if they would donate their blood. He could have done things so different, and because he didn't - he shouldn't be given a colonizer romance. And she should be allowed to keep on refusing him. I'm saying this on behalf of the readership. We do not want a colonizer romance. We do not want "she changed him" romances.

Thanks to NetGalley and Ballantine for an Advanced Reader Copy - pub date 4/16/2024. This is cover is absolutely stunning, it’s a literal piece of art. It is absolutely breath-taking. I just had to put that out there. The book gains a star simply for its cover alone.

Now my thoughts on this story... Heroes die, cowards live. The pen ultimate switch of roles in many ways. That alone drew me into the book because it promised to be different. The core of this book, of the story Chang offers, is not an easy or even a palatable one at times and, for that, it is strong. Wars (even fantasy wars) are not neat and tidy. Rarely do you have a side that is purely good and one that is purely evil. Fantasy might work like that but not reality and so this book bridges the gap a bit more than most. You have the grit and the grime and the misery, the collaborators and the oppressed and the oppressors.


This story didn’t exactly hook me and overall only gets 3 stars. But like I said…. The cover!! *chefs kiss*

What an amazing attention grabbing book! The characters are compelling and do a great job of moving the story along. They mesh well together without awkwardness between them. They endear you to them and immerse you in their world. I loved seeing what Rome could become, seeing the Asian influence, the idioms and comparisons, word choice and writing flow, it all danced together beautifully like the finale of a wonderful ballet. I found myself constantly questioning loyalties and motives from multiple characters, which is something I love in a book. Twists and turns, secrets and confessions, hunger and greed and small romances and familial ties, this book really had it all. The parallels I see to WW2 and the colonization of America (among others) is terrifying, knowing that this is possible. This book could one day become a true story, a foretelling of where our world is heading. Our world of humanity would be the bad guys, and thats horrible to think about. But that doesn't stop me from wanting a sequel. This world fascinates me. There was a lot of world building in this book, but I'm compelled to want more, to know more details. The cut off at the end of this book is also perfect, as much as I hate it. It's definitely the perfect place to cut off for a sequel. I would also love a book about all these events and the time that passed during this book from Meiya's point of view! To see the other side of things, to see the world through her eyes and the things she does, would be so intriguing.

dnfed - i truly wanted to enjoy this book! from the moment i saw the gorgeous cover, i was intrigued. the prose was promising and i always love supporting an author's debut work. however, i couldn't get into this for the life of me. i do feel this plot would have been better suited for another author (or the same author, just after some experience, since her talent is promising). a lot of the world-building lacked depth and i was left with multiple questions. i also found the beginning to be rather slow, leaving me rather bored (and when i find myself bored while reading, it can make or break a book). that being said, thank you netgalley and random house publishing for providing me with an arc!

Things I love -
The cover
The magic system
The lush descriptions
The folklore

Things I didn't like -
The slow beginning
The point of the story
The enemies to lovers (The horror - This is usually my favorite trope but something about this just didn't sit right with me)

The oppressor-oppressed romance trope mentioned in social media isn't really a factor here. It was exaggerated. The angle here is pretty similar to the jasad heir but still, I couldn't understand Antony and Ruying's chemistry and it made for a very uncomfortable read

3 Stars

The cover of this book is beautiful and what initially drew my eye. The beginning is pretty slow, but it did pick up for me and then I had to find out what was going to happen. There is a lot of telling and not showing, but it was still an entertaining read and I look forward to the second book.

Set in a world called Pengu, we follow our FMC, Ruying, as she literally fights to survive the very dangerous empire she lives in. Her people are oppressed by ‘Rome’, who from my understanding, are from another dimension/world/planet? They appeared several years ago from a portal that ripped into the sky. The Romans don’t have magic like her people, but they do have technology and science and they seem more modern than the people of Pengu. Apparently the Romans destroyed their planet by using up all their resources and climate change happened. No one really knows exactly what they want to gain from Pengu, at least not until the end of this book. So, Ruying is ‘the girl blessed by Death’ and has the power to reap souls, or Qi, from people. She grows up being terrified of her gift, calling it a curse. It’s explained that no two magic abilities are the same and apparently she’s the only one with this ability. One of the enemy Roman princes, Antony, sees her use her gift and has her kidnapped and forces her into a bargain to be his personal assassin. She really only agrees because she doesn’t want to die and she wants to keep her family safe.

This is technically an enemies to lovers and maybe a love triangle. I’m hoping we get a lot more of Ruying’s childhood friend, Baihu, because I don’t see her ending up wanting to be with Antony after everything. My favorite part of this story was the mythology/folklore and the magic system. It was really well done and I wish we got more of Ruying using her powers. Overall, I did like this book and will be reading book 2. Thank you to Netgalley and Random House Publishing for the ARC! 5 stars from me!

When I read the information on this book I was immediately drawn in. I had to read it and know the story of these characters. I am so glad I did!

The fact that this was loosely based on events that happened was harrowing. I felt my heart bleed for these people and the injustice they suffered. For the position our FMC was placed in so that she could protect her family and prevent more tragedies. It is easy to read about what someone, or some character, is going through and think about how you would do things differently. However much I disagreed with the decisions our FMC made, I could completely understand why she made them. Choosing life is the easiest road. Life for you and for those you love. Seeing which decision will ensure a good life or which decision is correct is not. I went into this book thinking it would go one way and it did not. I did not expect the mix of old and new, the blending of magic and science… or rather the clashing of them. This is not an easy book to read but it is worth it!

Those with magic are known as Xianling and they live in fear. Yang, the FMC, is one of the Pangulings with magic, death magic. Magic she has gone through great pains to ensure she keeps hidden and doesnt use. Magic has a price and for every time you use it you will shave off minutes, hours, or even years of your own life. Magic such as hers could be used against others, exploited, and deadly for too many. All she wants to do is protect her family from the Romans that have invaded and taken over their home. Forcing her people to scrape and bow like dogs eager for a gentle hand when all they receive are contempt and violence. Unfortunately she makes a costly mistake and the eyes of the Roman princes are now on her. She has to make a decision, rebel and her and her family will die or turn traitor against all her people.

Antony is a Roman prince and he can be very charming and very scary. He holds all the cards while whispering that they are equals. Words are but sounds we make of letters though, the important part to pay attention to is actions. Even knowing his deeds it is difficult not to want to believe in him. He knows when to show kindness or when to offer encouragement. His past is one to be pitied but his present is one to be feared.

I do not want to give away the journey. The story arc was wonderfully written and left me wrung out. I felt for the FMC and all she went through. I was constantly rooting for her and for her to come to her senses. The character development was phenomenal. We see the break down and the build up into something, someone new. I am only sad that I will need to wait for the next book in order to discover more. The hook did its job. I will be back for more!

Thanks to NetGalley and Ballantine for an Advanced Reader Copy - pub date 4/16/2024. Just going to get it out of the way here - This is one of the prettiest darn covers I have seen in a long time. It is absolutely breath-taking. Now for the story... Heroes die, cowards live. It's one heck of a power statement to build a story on and to set in front of a character. For one thing, it drives home that this is not going to be a standard Hero's Journey and you can expect a lot of grey shades. The core of this book, of the story Chang offers, is not an easy or even a palatable one at times and, for that, it is strong. Wars (even fantasy wars) are not neat and tidy. Rarely do you have a side that is purely good and one that is purely evil. Fantasy might work like that but not reality and so this book bridges the gap a bit more than most. You have the grit and the grime and the misery, the collaborators and the oppressed and the oppressors.

Even our main character Ruying is a wavering bundle of human wants and needs. Actually, strike that. There is no "even" about it. More than most other characters in the book, Ruying shows the hard choices and compromises that a person might need to make in an oppressed nation. The survival of her sister and grandmother comes first, full stop. She herself is low on the totem pole of People To Protect. In fact, her deeply seated self-value issues put her lower than just about everyone. When your Gift is Death, though, and your mom died giving birth to you and your addict dad blamed you... I suppose it's easy to see how her ego is rock bottom. Equally as easy to see how she can react so well to the slightest bit of respect or praise. (Of course, that does not mean her reaction to a certain someone is HEALTHY.)

The best parts of this book are the descriptions - lush and graphic and powerful - and the growing moral questions and ambiguity. Chang makes it hard to know what the "right path" is and you are right there with Ruying in trying to decide how best to navigate the dangerous world. So many of the choices are no-win, an emotional gut-punch of damned if you do but damned if you don't. Very much like I imagine living in a land under the thumb of another would be.

However, working against these high points, you have a very slow start. Pacing was a weakness of the book, especially in the first half, and I felt like I was constantly revisiting the litany of "Romans are evil and vicious and hateful" and "I am cursed" and such. The second half picks up but then the last 50 pages are a race to the end combined with a sudden science infodump. Very odd.

Two other more personal points. I had to deal with a rather violent dislike/distaste for Ruying's sister but that might be a Me Thing. Also the sudden chapter from Antony's POV was a very odd stylistic choice. After 43 chapters of Ruying's POV, a short 2-3 pages of Antony was more than a little jarring.

All in all, I look forward to reading the second book to see what happens and who betrays who... Because it is definitely going to get worse before it gets better for Ruying. I also am willing to bet that the pacing issues and repetitiveness that interrupted my total enjoyment of this first book will be resolved since the world will be fully fleshed out already.

I was excited to get the opportunity to read this book. I was instantly hooked at the beginning - the world building/characters was easy for me to follow. Ruying is the FMC who lives in a world that has been taken over by the Romans. Ruying's culture possesses magic (some individuals are able to have special gifts) and with that they allowed and trusted the Romans however they were slowly overturned with their technology and science.

Ruying also possesses the ability to summon death- which she is captured and has to work under Antony once of the Roman Princes in order to keep her family safe. Under Antony's command - Ruying begins to struggle with whether or not he is as evil as she had thought and wonders if by doing his bidding if that will lead to both cultures being able to live together.

Although this book discusses themes of imperialism and colonialism- I felt that it was discussed almost each chapter. I also wanted to see more interactions between with Ruying and Antony. Even though they both begin to have feelings for one another I found it hard (more so Antony to believe his feelings for Ruying (as Ruying was isolated and manipulated by Antony). I needed more of Antony POV (which we did get a snippet). I also as a girl who loves Romantasies wanted to root for Antony- I too wanted to believe him.

Overall- I do plan to read the next book I need to know what happens now that Ruying is ready to fight for what she believes. I do hope there will be more romance elements.

3/5 stars. Thank you to the publisher & netgalley for the e-ARC.

I thought this was book was okay. I didn't hate it, but I also didn't love it.

The biggest issue I had with this book is the lack of action. It felt like all the events happening were told to us in the FMC's inner monologue but we never got to see any of it happen. The last 20% of the book was probably the best part of it all because we actually got some events playing out but even then it felt so rushed. The issue with the beginning 80% feeling like only monologue, I didn't really get much of an attachment to Prince Antony which made the reveal at the end kind of anticlimactic. I didn't really grow to love him or want to root for him and Ruying which made his betrayal not very surprising or heart breaking, it just happened and I moved on without caring. I also didn't really like Ruying. She seemed very naive and lacked a voice. She very much believed whatever she was told by which ever man she was talking to at the time (Antony or Baihu). She also talks about how much she hates either of them or doesn't trust them but in the same monologue talks about how beautiful they are and just their smile takes her breath away and usually ends up caving to whatever they're saying. She didn't seem to have much of a backbone, so I'm curious to see how she progresses in the second book.

I did enjoy the concept and I do love enemies to lovers story especially when the enemy should not be trusted ever. I am intrigued to see where the story goes in the second one after how this one ended.

Will post to Goodreads on release date!

“None of us could’ve guessed that hell opened from the skies above, not from the ground beneath.”


This book dealt with some heavier themes such as imperialism and colonialism, loyalty, heritage, sacrifices and morality. The author does an amazing job at showing the depth between it all.

To put it plainly, I really enjoyed the book! It’s not one of my all time favorites, but I’m sure it will be for many.

A fresh face of fantasy, Asian mythology/folklore, enemies to lovers.. this book has some strong tropes that is the backbone of romances these days. It follows Ruying, a young girl who can control Death. She lives in a world that has been invaded by ruthless people of another world. Due to Ruying’s world being one of magic, when the invaders dropped from the sky with their science machines, it was something unbelievable to her world. Now caught in a war between science and magic, between two cultures and worlds, she has to decide where she fits into this and the difficult choices facing her.

The world building , the lore, even the heavy suffering of both sides in the book, was masterfully crafted and made me cry! I can’t wait for book #2, I’m excited to see where it’s headed.

Big hugs to the author for weathering the hate storm as well!

Thank you to NetGalley for providing an ARC! My opinion is my own.

Thank you to NetGalley for giving me an ARC in exchange for an honest review. I am not finishing this novel. DNF. The world building is interesting, but the plot is really slow. I’ve been in a slump and this isn’t helping. I’m rating it three stars because it makes me.

I was very excited for this book. I love the cover, was intrigued by the premise, and was touched by the author's note. However, I ended up feeling disappointed. The world-building felt confusing and the main character is frustrating to me.

Thank you NetGalley and Random House Publishing Group for the ARC!