Memoir or novel? It's called a novel but is written under a pseudonym and the pacing, content, and writing style lend more to a memoir.

The novel tells the story of China and the sentiment and unrest leading up to the events in Tiananmen Square. We follow our main character from her childhood to her time at University. She was a student involved in the protests and the hunger strike that resulted in the tragedy of martial law being declared and the violence that occurred against the students at Tiananmen Square.

The most action occurred in the last 75% of this book, and I did find that part really interesting. If you've never read anything about this time period and moment in time, you may enjoy this novel.

I wish I could say that I loved this book, but I don't think I'm the right reader for the literary style. If you enjoy slower paced novels with a focus on storytelling and have a memoir like feel, you will enjoy this. I enjoyed the overall story I gleaned from this novel, but it took me such a long time to get there. 😬

Thank you to netgalley for an ARC in exchange for my honest review.

4⭐ for the last quarter of the book but overall pacing and content, 3⭐.

I love the way the book flows. It has made for an easy and compelling read. Lai Wen's characters are built in gentle tender layers bringing to life their very essence. The details written within are soft and gentle but give you a real sense of being part of the story, of seeing and feeling for real all its elements. Yes a young girls coming of age but it is so much more. A fabulous novel and an outstanding piece of work. If you have read and enjoyed Hanya Yanagihara's novel 'A Little Life ' then this book is for you.
My appreciation goes to NetGalley and Spiegel &Grau for giving me early access to this novel for my honest review.

Lai is growing up during China's post-Cultural Revolution. The novel is pensive and well written, a "normal" girl coming of age in tense times. A memorable protagonist and a part of history that is not often written about, leading up to the protests in Tiananmen Square and the lives of the students involved.

This story, set against the tumultuous backdrop of post-Cultural Revolution China, is both powerful and haunting.

The foreword mentions that Lai Wen was inspired by Elena Ferrante, and that is evident in the writing. It feels very similar to memoir-esque, expository style My Brilliant Friend, subtracting the friend and adding political activism.

It explores a moment in history that is not commonly covered in the English language—I’ve never come across a novel on the topic. It fills an important gap, providing a detailed account of growing up in 1970s China and the resistance movement among students. It could have been written more tightly, but some will no doubt enjoy that level of detail to become immersed in the world.

I recommend this book to anyone who likes Elena Ferrante’s writing style and is interested in the subject matter.

This book is a masterpiece! The writing is absolutely stunning. The way she describes childhood, and what it's like to be a young adult who is stuck between childhood and adulthood is so relatable. The events that happen, the protests against censorship and oppression are so relevant even though these events took place several decades ago. She ties together little details beautifully and with such meaning and purpose. I laughed and cried while reading; it's like you're really there. This book isn't just a story, it's an experience, and I can't recommend it enough!

This book is out of my normal reads, but it’s a powerful one. At over 500 pages, I felt it. There were many parts that went horribly slow and the book honestly could have been. 100-150 pages less.

I am not familiar with the historical piece post Chinese culture revolution so it was interesting. Lai was a great character and I definitely hated her treatment … and reading the self destructive behavior. However, it was impactful and truthful.

Wen has written a compelling story about how the politically trying times in China post-Cultural Revolution influenced the way the country lived and operated. You can see it in the way Lai and her family live with each other and the way that everything is written in a slow, tense manner. It felt like we were building, building, building up to something with no way of knowing for sure how Lai herself would be impacted.

There were moments that I wondered where the story was going to go because there were scenes that felt unbearably slow and pointless. I was mostly frustrated with the way Lai's family treated her and how this treatment ultimately led to some of her self-destructive habits. The self-harm in this book was horribly brutal as well so be warned.