*4.5

I’m not a fan of bully romance but this is just great (like everything Alexis Hall writes. I love his work so damn much!). Alfie has my heart, I understand him so well and it’s a huge compliment because I am a Fen, a I am a victim of bullying, so I was expected to hate Alfie. Instead I quite love him. Okay, I love him a lot.
But Fen. Fen is a star. He’s so strong and I admire him so much! I love him with my whole being. He’s such a great character and such well written!
The romance is great, the development is realistic and I like it. Yeah, I don’t think I can forgive Alfie if I am in Fen’s shoes, but that’s on him. And I love the way the story ends.

Thank you Netgalley and the publisher for the arc!

Alfie has everything money can buy, Fen is running the flower shop his mother loved, but he doesn't. something is missing in both of their lives is it each other?

DNF. I’m very disappointed to have to do this, but I can’t in good conscience continue with this. I don’t mind higher-spice Hall books, but the way this was written icked me out. Add in the history between the leads, with one being the other’s bully, and that not being properly CWed (ARC copy says TK), I just can’t do it.

The pure delight of the new editions of the Spires series has been revisiting characters and stories I adore with fresh eyes, rediscovering moments I have always found moving and hilarious, and being surprised by new insights from the magnificent author annotations and bonus materials. An absolute gift from the author and publisher.

Alfie Bell returns home to South Shields, England and after accidentally outing himself at a friend's wedding finds himself reuniting with someone from his past in the most unexpected of moments. Fen O'Donaghue is grieving, prickly, and full of capacity for joy. Is this a one-night, one-week fling or something more? They stutter and stumble to find forgiveness, self acceptance and connection in the town they both wanted to escape. Hall deftly handles all the complexities with great care, gentleness, and humor.. Their relationship is multilayered, intricate, and very very romantic.

CW: Alexis Hall provides content guidance that is not exhaustive but may contain spoilers on website: https://quicunquevult.com/book/pansies/#content-guidance8067-241ce83c-0205

Pansies is probably my favorite of the Spires novels so far! I absolutely loved the story between Alfie and Fen. It’s early days but I think this story is one that will linger in my heart.

The way Alexis Hall introduces such richly developed and developing characters is *chefs kiss*. We get to follow Alfie as he explores what his identity means to him and teases that apart from what he was raised believing. We also get to watch Fen find his way back to the present and the desire to be a participant in everyday life after his mother’s death. Watching these characters explore these things while coming together and supporting one another was beautiful!

Absolutely recommend reading! Also loved the fun annotations at end of the book! It made the experience feel decadent. Thank you to the publisher for providing an advance copy via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

10 Stars. This book gets better with every read, but reading the annotations along side the book is an incredible experience. The extra layers behind what Hall is trying to do in the book conceptually really heightens the reading experience, as well as it continues his thoughtful and funny voice. I loved it.

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The Spires series is my absolute favorite of Alexis Hall books. I love the combination of wit, angst, romance and hopefulness in these. The atmosphere created by the prose and turns of phrase feel almost otherworldly in his word play, metaphor, and allusions that are effortlessly written into a perfect rhythm. His way of describing feelings and moods, or the way he’s expressing the heaviness or lightness of a situation, is so visual you can almost touch the sentences.

Out of the 4 Spires books, Pansies feels the most personal and the level of detail and “sense of place” is incredible. You can actually smell the sea and hear the seagulls in South Shields, where the story takes place. The idea of how love and connection can transform and redeem even if you still have things to work out is so special. The grief that Fen is experiencing, being stuck in it, unsure what to do with himself–how sometimes he’s fine and then out of the blue he’s not–is so true and exactly how grief is. I've never seen grief written about so perfectly.

But it's the ending which is the most romantic thing ever and you feel like you just fell in love yourself. Don't be surprised if you hug the book to your chest after you finish. *swoon*

Thank you to NetGalley for providing me with an ARC of this book in exchange for an honest review.

Just like with other books by Alexis Hall, you aren’t going to get a fluffy, no plot romcom. You get realness, grit, heart, tears, and just absolutely everything out on the table. Hall’s books are sometimes so real and dealing with such emotions that they can be hard read because they make you think and reflect. But I love that. Just as I loved reading Pansies.

Pansies is the next book in the Spires series which are all loosely connected but can wholly stand on their own. There are little nods and mentions here and there to places and people in other books (such as Fen’s ex being David) but they don’t detract or distract from the story but rather are fun insider nods for those who know.

I’ll skip past a rehashing or regurgitation of the book’s synopsis as you can look at that yourself. One of the main tropes of Pansies is the former school bully to lovers trope. I will be quite frank, as a person who was horribly bullied throughout my schooling, this has historically not been a trope I have found to be appealing in the slightest. In the instance of this book, Alfie was the bully to Fen (Fenimore) during school.

I’m not going to apologize for or minimize Alfie’s behaviors and the impacts it’s had on Fen. And neither does the book. A plot point that pops up throughout is Alfie’s internalized homophobia and the impact his actions and words have on others, specifically Fen. I love how this was not brushed aside or glossed over.

I enjoyed this rerelease with the author annotations throughout. I am a sucker for seeing “behind the curtain” to know more about what went into a certain line or plot line.

Plus, we finally got an Alexis Hall epilogue!!!! Huzzah!

What a beautiful, melancholy second chances love story. I read the original version of this a couple years ago and just read the arc of the revised version and really enjoyed the detail of the author's notes throughout and the depth they added to the story. As someone from a small working class town (where the people were often homophobic/unwelcoming to outsiders) I appreciated reading a story about a similar place. Hall captures the feeling of returning to these places and how they can feel both oppressive and comfortably like home. Alfie and Fen were such well-drawn characters, both with their own flaws and lovable qualities. Upon re-reading the book it struck me just how romantic Alfie was, it was nice to see a stereotypically masculine character be so down bad and unabashedly smitten. I still wasn't a fan of the third-act breakup and non-communication on Alfie's part but at least it was satisfying when he rushed back to his love with friends in tow (a trope Hall is definitely a fan of). Overall this is my favorite story in the excellent Spires series and I'm glad to see it get such a nice re-release.

Pansies is about two men at crossroads in their lives.

Alfie thought he had everything he wanted - fast car, fancy flat, high power job. But something is missing.

Fen is running the flower shop him mum loved, but he is drowning.

They have to decide what they want for their futures, and if the other man is part of it. As usual, Alexis Hall has written beautifully flawed characters that aren’t magically “fixed,” but experience growth to achieve their HEA. Five stars.

A sweet romance of the stuffed shirt meets wild child type, set in what Hall calls "one of those towns you never see," showing that you can go home again.

This was really sweet - felt like I was in another time & place as it had a very old world feel to me. The story of Alfie and Fen, reconnecting after a terrible youth, where Alfie was the bully and poor Fen was on the end of daily harassment and pain. Apologies, life changes and sincerity helped them both move on to become the people they were meant to be. Really enjoyable

Tender, touching and sometimes quite melancholic - a story about making amends, finding home and finding yourself, too.

Both Alfie and Fen are flawed people in many ways, but that made both of them more real to me and got me invested in their relationship. I loved the way they spoke to each other - something about it seemed so easy and natural (when Alfie could actually find his words, of course). I liked how the gradual change in their relationship made both of them change as people - accepting themselves, changing their perspectives. I liked how they helped each other - I am not a huge fan of romances where one mc is clearly the saviour and the other is the one needing the saving (not dissing them though - life is short and we should all read what makes us happy, no matter what other people say), and here they were both for each other.

The steamy scenes were steamy, and the side characters were interesting in their own right.

The thing that really got me here though (and the reason for full 5 stars) is the backstory of Fen's mom and their relationship. I suppose it's for personal reasons, but those moments were as beautiful as they were emotional to read. Romance novels rarely make me cry, but this one definitely did.

Huge thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for the eARC in exchange for an honest review.

I loved the first 4th of the book, but then it dragged. I felt like I kept reading the same scenes. I was more invested in the outcome/future of Pansies than the couple. My favorite scenes were with Alfie, Greg and Kitty. I liked the detail and accents slipped in regards South Shields. I read the forward and understand it was o e if the first novels written, and now edited and re-released. But it does feel like a loose debut.

4 stars and my thanks to Netgalley and the Publisher for the eARC. (well, a reprint of an old book by Hall)

What's this I read? A sequel by Alexis Hall that didn't fall into the Curse? Can it be true?
Kinda.

Alfie is gay and still grappling with what it means in his masculinity=no feelings upbringing when he runs into Fen in his hometown. The good news is, Fen is gorgeous and handsome and funny. The bad news is, Alfie and his friends brutally bullied Fen 15 years ago when they were in the same grade school (or whatever the UK equivalent is). Dealing with his guilt and feelings for Fen, Alfie has a lot to work through and Fen has to decide if the past should stay in the past or move forward.

Hall does a decent job of showing Fen struggling with his feelings for Alfie now versus his fear and loathing of Alfie from the past. He's also grieving his mother and the potential loss of her prized flower shop. I think Fen is probably one of my favorite Alexis Hall characters.

For as smart as Alfie is at times, he can be completely dense when it comes to person-to-person interactions. He's struggling with internalized queerphobia and trying so hard to be a good partner, but fails spectacularly at times. I'm tired of third act breakups and "I'm dumping you to protect you" tropes, but Hall loves them.

Unfortunately, this book was not for me. I went in blind -!: while I’m not opposed to MM romance or spice, the book jumped off with some otettt spicy MM scenes before ever getting to know the characters. From there, it was hard to get back into the story of the book. It seemed as though they were grumpy/grumpy and I like a bit more grumpy sunshine. Perhaps it was right book wrong time, but the book seemed like it was going to be very drama filled with turmoil from the first page and I wanted a little more lightness sprinkled in. Even the humor woven throughout the chapters fell flat for me.

Solid 3⭐️’s. The book offers a heartfelt exploration of identity and redemption, centered around Alfie Bell, who grapples with his past and present after a chance encounter with Fen, a boy from his hometown. Hall’s writing is witty and engaging, capturing the complexities of modern relationships and self-acceptance.

The character development is compelling. The chemistry between Alfie and Fen is palpable, but the resolution lacks depth, making it hard to fully invest in their journey.

Overall, it’s an enjoyable read with moments of brilliance, though it doesn’t quite reach its full potential.

While this is book 4 in Hall's Spires series, each book is a stand-alone (although I've read and enjoyed the first 3).

This one follows Alfie, a wealthy investment banker who returns to his small home town for a friend's wedding only to be confronted with Fen, a cute guy he pulls at a bar. Of course, things are never that simple and it turns out that Fen is the same kid Alfie and his friends all bullied relentlessly as children.

The attraction is immediate, but they both have emotional baggage to sort through. Alexis Hall always writes deeply nuanced, deeply flawed, deeply lovable characters. Alfie and Fen are no exception. It was fun while I was reading it and it got me over my reading slump, but I've enjoyed others by the author more. The Spires series are reprints of older releases, and Alexis Hall has grown as an author since. I highly recommend A Lady For a Duke and the Boyfriend Material series.

This is an absolutely beautifully-written book around some very sensitive topics. You cannot tread lightly into this book. You must give it your whole heart. Alexis doesn’t hold back, giving us a very flawed Alfie who thinks he’s made a complete turnaround from his youth days, but learns that he still has a ways to go.

When reading Fen, I think the prologue regarding his mother is so insightful, and helps you understand how Fen reacts in the book and why he may make choices that the reader may not. The relationship between these two characters has so many layers and Alexis slowly peels them back as we read.

Gothshelley is an absolutely dream side character. The quips, the banter - exquisite. Throw in the many musical references and you have a fantastically written book about heavy subject matters.

Alexis Hall broke my heart again with the fourth installment of their Spires series, Pansies.

What struck me the most about Pansies was this idea of going home to the place you escaped, the place that hurt you and made you in equal measure, and that place ending up healing you. As a person who ran from their town at 17 and never looked back, Alfie’s and Ren’s complex relationship with their town resonates deeply. I know it’s considered cliche to wax poetic about settings being their own characters but South Shields IS A CHARACTER and it develops! Not only itself but the lads as well. It’s whole function is to provide a space for Alfie and Ren to meet each other as the men they are now versus the boys they were in the past.

I also know the title is not an accident but Hall’s way of laying on the not-very-nice insult lobbed at queer boys that insinuates they’re too effeminate or delicate. Truly, the idea of being perceived as weak is Alfie’s lifelong battle, and he almost loses.

In sum, if you’re new to The AH Multiverse, you’re in for spectacularly complex characters overcoming really shit circumstances, whether they be external or internal conflicts. Buckle up for beautifully steamy scenes between consenting adults, and prepare yourself to cry at least once. Their works are achingly human and 3000% delightful.

No book by Alexis Hall will ever get anything less than 5 stars from me.

Pansies is yet another incredibly well written MM novel about grief, longing, love, and finding yourself. I loved Alfie and Fen's story so much and I can't wait to read more from the Spires series.

If you want an emotional read that will make you think about your own fears and relationships, I highly recommend this book,