This book started off as a bit of a family drama, childhood trauma story and turned into a fever dream paranormal nightmare. I was absolutely here for all of it! Flora just had her first child and is struggling with motherhood, especially considering her husband is stationed abroad for a few more weeks. She reluctantly enlists the help of her mother, whom she's been estranged from for years. This rollercoaster took a turn toward the paranormal side and I absolutely loved every minute of it! I highly recommend this book!

𝐀𝐮𝐝𝐢𝐨𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 &| 𝐞𝐀𝐫𝐜 𝐑𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐰
4 🌟
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Now, this is WILD! I don't even know if I can express how wild this ride was. Imagine being a first-time mom, having PPD, and hallucinating! I mean, if you been a first-time mom, I'm sure you might have experienced something along these lines or maybe not.
Flora is a new mom enamored of her dauggter, Iris, who has arrived a few weeks early. But with her husband still deployed, Flora must navigate the newborn stage alone. As the sleepless nights pass in the loneliness of their half-empty home, the edges of her reality begin to blur.
What made me think Flora was crazy was when she started seeing and speaking to her imagined friend that she had when she was a little girl.
I wouldn't recommend a new mom to read this book, as it could be a little triggering! But other than that, it's highly interesting.
The audiobook is great! The narrator did a good job. She was easy to listen to and also to follow along on this journey.
𝐑𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 Sept. 17
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Thank you, Netgalley, Mulholland, for the eBook and Hachette Audio for the audiobook in exchange for my honest review.

Publication date September 16, 2024

Thank you to Hachette Audio via Netgalley for the opportunity to read and review this audiobook!

It's a great horror/thriller book. Jacquie Walters created a fantastic book with twists and turns, and I constantly found myself in suspense and trying to figure out where the storyline was going. Mrs. Walters is a fantastic storyteller, and this was something I could see as being a movie. Seeing that the author sold five pilots before releasing her debut novel, I understand why its transitions felt seamless. Mrs. Walters is a fantastic author, and I look forward to reading more of her books.

Oh, and the cherry on the cake is that not only did she write the book, but she narrated it for the audiobook and knocked that out of the park, too!!

Dearest is a combination of fever dream, postpartum insecurities, intrusive thoughts, and paranormal activity. The audiobook narrator was soothing to listen to and really embraced the character. When Flora begins to struggle with very real postpartum woes, made worse by a deployed husband, she starts to spiral into a chaotic fever dream-esque state of mind. What’s real and what’s not is as clear as Flora’s thought process as she tries to scramble for purchase on anything that can ease the trials of motherhood. Not a self-help or “What to Expect…” book, but a thriller-ish rendering of hormones and intrusive thoughts combined. 4 Stars for the audiobook!!

Thank you NetGalley and Hachette Audio for the ALC
In return for my honest review!

3.5/5
TW: postpartum depression
Thank you Netgalley for the opportunity of lending me this wonderful ARC

WHOA!

I was completely captivated and unable to stop listening to the audiobook. Even as I finished the book while walking alone with my dogs at night, a shiver ran up my spine.

A new mom struggling with loneliness invites her estranged mother into her home to help with her newborn baby. As strange and frightening events start happening, the new mom begins to fear that her mother's secrets have brought something evil into their lives.

In her debut novel, Jacquie Walters impressively narrates her own story, showcasing exceptional characterization and plot complexity. The fast-paced narrative builds to a chilling, supernaturally charged ending that will leave readers on the edge of their seats. With well-developed characters and vivid imagery, this horror novel is sure to send shivers down your spine. Highly recommended for fans of creepy, chilling tales.

Thank you NetGalley and Hachette Audio | Mulholland Books for audio ARC copy. I am leaving this review voluntarily.

A very nicely put together debut. I liked the slow burn of this one and was intrigued by the backstory. The writing was well done and crisp and the audio narration was perfectly paced for the story. I will definitely recommend this one and am looking forward to more from the author.

DNF. The style of this book put me off immediately. The weirdly executed present-tense, overly cheeky narration and cringe-inducing dialogue. I am clearly not the right person for this book because I cannot continue.

Jacqueline Walters narrated her own novel and blew it away ten fold. It didn't dawn on me till the credits after the epilogue when she was named. The feeling and energy that went in to characterization and situations was just phenomenal.

Dearest is a book about motherhood, generational trauma, post partum depression and the fears and worries we develop as mothers after we have our babies. There was such careful intertwining with these elements as the author created this world and our main character, Flora. Flora asks if the brain organ changes during/after pregnancy because of all her new found fears and worries (which yeah, the amount of hormones and new neuro pathways...okay I digress). We get time to relate as she worries about Iris and her little comforts. If she is doing enough or the right things. On top of being a new mother, her husband is away on work and she is isolated in a home and its so very cold outside. There is a point where Flora starts to question her sanity when things in the house begin to place themselves in unusual spots, flashes of unknown memories arise and she starts hallucinating. Out of desperation, she reaches out to her estranged mom of four years, and just in time because her childhood friend makes a reappearance. I won't go beyond this because there is a twist that actually got me, and that's really hard to accomplish.

If you are a mom like I am, and if you suffered from postpartum depression like I did, I imagine this book will have a very special deep effect on you like it did me. The author who wrote this either had PPD or knew someone very close to them who did. I feel seen, that's for sure. It's written with understanding and sincerity. There's even a mentioning of The Yellow Wallpaper in her story when mentioning her mother.

I still can't believe this is a debut novel. The language, execution and complexity of plot is well done and outlined. It's moderately to fast paced, well carved out characters, imagery for effect is very well done and the ending including epilogue is wonderfully tied off.

Thank you to NetGalley and Hachette Audio for this ALC.

I found Dearest to be very creepy and there were a good amount of twists. The plot was definitely unique, but I found the book to drag a bit near the end. Personally, I think the ending fell flat for me as well.

I still enjoyed reading and I think Dearest is a great debut novel for Jacquie! I also enjoyed that she did the narration for the book.

Well, I read alot of mystery and thriller books. I would not classify this as either. This is speculative/horror. I hated it. But, to be fair, I don't like or read that genre. I would argue this is not a mystery.

wow. I finished in one sitting. I couldn't put it down. It was a good mix between horror and thriller. Everything that was lacking in 'Incidents around the house" this book had! A great mind-f. is it post partum psychosis or something else?

My god, this was wild! It follows Flora and her 6 week old baby as she navigates the newborn stage solo while her husband is deployed. Sleep deprived and desperate, she reaches out to her estranged mother and when she shows up to help, things take an extremely dark turn. This really got to the heart of the postpartum experience in realistic ways that keep you guessing - is this normal or true madness? There are some twists/reveals that I did not see coming and had me SHOOK. Very unsettling stuff.

“Dearest” is a creepy horror that surrounds Flora, a new mother who is caring for her daughter alone whilst her husband is away for work.

Flora is struggling with motherhood facing the difficulties of sleep deprivation, anxieties, breastfeeding difficulties, forgetfulness etc.

When Floras estranged mother arrives unexpectedly she is relieved, grateful for the extra help and an opportunity to mend broken relationship bonds.

As the days pass Floras forgetfulness and clumsiness worsens and she finds herself losing patches of time. She starts to suspect that she’s either going crazy or her mother has dark intentions. She begins to suffer from hallucinations and becomes increasingly paranoid and hysterical.

I really enjoyed this book, I found the horror components to be sufficiently creepy with a touch of gore, but not too disturbing giving the subject matter surrounding a young infant.

Read if you like:
Parenthood horror themes
Paranormal themes
Motherhood themes

Thank you to Jacquie Walter’s, Hachette Audio & Mulholland Books for the ALC & EARC!

Publish date: September 17th 2024

OH MY, this whole book was a roller coaster of eerie thriller. The Narrator does a perfect job inflicting the emotions and pace needed to tell this story. She hits the sensation of feeling of every emotion needed right on the head. The first half of this book I thought I knew for sure what was occurring and who the crazy person was, but that reveal at 52% my jaw dropped. I had to pause the book and stand up to gather my thoughts. THAN the book continues like that information wasn't just DROPPED on you and you again feel like you know how this story is going. Nope. This book took a whole different turn then what I expected and I couldn't put it down. I will be recommending this to all my thriller mystery horror loving friends.

Flora has just had her baby and she is all alone while her husband is deployed. Facing post partum emotions, she starts hearing things and seeing things. She blames it on sleep deprivation. When she reaches out to her mother who she hasn't spoken to since her wedding, her mother comes to her to help her and support her. Very quickly though Flora realizes her mother Jodi behaves weirdly about things and makes her feel even more crazy at times. Then when her mothers starts making Flora feel unsafe, Flora begins to wonder what exactly has she invited into her home.

Fantastic horror debut!

Jacquie Walters delivers a haunting tale about hidden family secrets and new motherhood.

Flora must take care of her six-week old daughter alone while her husband is deployed. Consumed with loneliness, guilt, boredom, and exhaustion, Flora longs to be reunited with her estranged mother. She is desperate for some help and guidance on how to manage new motherhood. When she begins seeing her childhood imaginary friend, having strange dreams, and hearing voices in the baby monitor, she breaks her silence and contacts her mother.

I am deliberately stopping there with the plot synopsis in order to avoid spoilers. I would compare this book to Ashley Audrain’s The Push meets Charlotte Perkins Gilman’s The Yellow Wallpaper with an added supernatural twist.

I listened to the audiobook which is expertly read by the author. Move over January LaVoy (sacrilegious I know), but she is that good. I listened to it in one day!

The ending felt a bit rushed, as I needed a little more explanation. However, I really enjoyed this cuckoo plot!

Trigger Warnings: A lot of talk about breastfeeding and nipples (including a scene that left me speechless) and postpartum depression

4/5 stars

Expected publication date: 9/17/24

Thank you to NetGalley and Hachette Audio for the ARC of Dearest in exchange for an honest review.

Anything about new moms has been my jam lately - as I am one myself - so I was excited to finally find something that piqued my interest <i>and</i> was a thriller; I'm the pickiest when it comes to thrillers.

The ending to this wasn't for me AT ALL, had I known it would veer the way it did I wouldn't have chosen to read it in the first place. That first 75ish% though? WOW. The most hauntingly accurate glimpse into the mind of a new mother, bombarded by phantom cries and invasive thoughts. Not only that but the slippery slope of postpartum mental health, <spoiler>postpartum psychosis being an ending I would have MUCH preferred over a supernatural explanation (a sentence I'd never imagined saying in a million years). </spoiler>

The narrator's voice took me some time to get used to for some reason, but the changes in voice for some characters was spot on!

{Thank you bunches to NetGalley, Jacquie Walter's and publisher for the ALC in exchange for my honest review!}

This book was so good! I love books where you have reality bending because you never know what’s gonna happen next. The narration was great. The plot twists were unhinged in the best way. Def recommend this one!

I received this for review. Whoa this was a wild and crazy ride! It was like a crazy gross train wreck that I could not stop looking at. This was weird and good and creepy and scary! If you are into out of the box books that combine paranormal and creepy then this is for you. I will be thinking about this book for a long time.

DEAREST by Jacquie Walters

Thank you to NetGalley and Hachette Audio for the ARC of Dearest by Jacquie Walters

3.5 stars
Jacquie Walters also does the narration of her fast-paced psychological supernatural thriller debut of Dearest. I thought her narration was very well done and enjoyed listening to her.

Thirty-two year old, Flora, is sliding into postpartum psychosis six weeks after giving birth to her daughter, Iris. Her husband is deployed overseas. She reaches out to her estranged mother, Jodi, for some help. Flora isn’t sure if she and her mom will be able to mend their differences or not. Is Flora’s hold on reality slipping away? Or is she, in fact, the only thing standing between a terrifying visitor and her baby?

A fast-paced frightening debut of postpartum depression with lots of twist and turns. It got a bit strange toward the end with some supernatural weirdness going on. A terrifying exploration of maternal instinct, mental health, and the complex relationship of a mother and daughter. This book brought back memories of Rosemary’s Baby. I look forward to seeing what JW does next.