I unfortunately was not able to read this book. I was excited when ever I had chosen to download or pick this book up on Netgalley. However, time moves by so quickly and I never got to read it.

This was a well done, dark YA story. It's about the draw to sports and the feeling of connection and popularity that can come with it. But it's more about the dark side of it - when the push to be #1 becomes mandatory and the training becomes abuse.

This story is also about high school and acceptance - climbing the social ladder and friendship. Greg is a bigger kid and is frustrating by the name calling and the teasing. He's tired of being bullied and pushed around. He is working on getting in shape - with the help of a friend - and he stumbles on the Lacrosse team practicing. Only, the practicing looks a lot like bullying.

It was a dark but very well done story - the characters were believable and flawed. I loved that they were all working through something and were really struggling to be good to themselves and others. I'm glad I gave it a try.

While reading this, it started giving me John Green vibes and I wasn't sure how I felt about that. Some of Green's stories hit me right in the feels while a majority of them do nothing for me. This seems to be a story about an overweight boy in HS, Greg, that loves working on film projects and realizes that he wants to lose weight. He decides that he would combine his two interests - film and losing weight - to get the most bang for his buck. While filming one day he catches some pretty serious hazing by other students. This is where I start to get triggered. Instead of Greg and his friends actually doing something about this hazing, they choose to "just get a little more footage". Are you mental?! Why not tell someone? An adult? A teacher? A cop? Tell someone! BUT NO! They want more footage. Selfish jerks. Greg and his friends are victims of bullying so they know what that pain and torture is like so why wouldn't they speak up? It made me so mad that I had to walk away from this several times. I expected something bigger and just more from these characters. What a disappointment of a story.