I have been reading my way through Eric LaRoccas books and this new one is another hit! The story of Ashley Lutin who lost his wife and after, his young son was kidnapped. After time of dealing with his grief he comes up with an odd reborn ritual that people seek to be renewed and feel less pain. This was a tough story to listen to. It’s very dark and very descriptive of what happens when he finally is told what happened to his child.

The grief he is constantly dealing with from his family being gone is so thick and it has extreme changed on him. I listen to the audiobook and the narrator was amazing. There were brief moments that I thought were going to be too unbearable, but it was not too much to keep me listening. I felt a lot of sadness for the main character at the end. Over all I enjoyed the book and will continue to read his other works.

At Dark I Become Loathsome is Eric Larocca at his best.
I think this is his most accessible book to date.

Dark and dreamlike, I found myself unable to stop until I'd finished and, after finishing the last page, I found that my mind was too disturbed to go to sleep ... my comforter was giving coffin vibes, and I wasn't into it. I just needed to move and stretch. This is a hard book to put down, and even harder to shake off. At Dark I Become Loathsome IS loathsome. And lonely. And lovely.

4.25 / 5

This book is really quite something. Not for the faint of heart by any means, and pushing the boundaries in a way that makes the reader uncomfortable (but that's the point with extreme horror, isn't it?), but a tour de force in many respects.

In a straightforward, direct style it's a meditation on grief and trauma and the extremities to which those things can shape the mind and people's actions. There are sub-stories within the main narrative to show there are monsters out there, and they're human (at one point the lead POV, Ashely, says something along the lines of "it could be worse").

It also delves into guilt and repression, and how they can manifest in destructive ways, which as the book explores can be very, very dark indeed.

There is a lot graphic shocking horror wrapped up in a short amount of space and LaRocca kept it going from the start, right until the very end. I really enjoyed the narrator and found that he really pulled me into the story easily. One you really need to check triggers on before you dive into, but definitely promises to be a wild ride.

First, this was truly horrific. The body horror was absolutely there, and it nearly worked for me.

Unfortunately, I found the narrator a bit insufferable. It reminded me a bit if Ebony Dark'ness Dementia Raven Way was a 40 year old male serial killer and had me laughing out loud on occasion. If this would have been told with a little less of an edgy incel vibe, I could have totally loved it.

Horror is one of the more subjective genres, and I've loved Eric LaRocca before, and I will continue to read him in the future.

What an insane story. I love this author and his blend of horror never disappoints. This one was extremely dark and full of intense moments that I will not forget.

I received an audio copy of this book. I think the narrator did a great job.

I did find a couple of aspects of the book quite repetitive, which is why it's not 5 stars for me. For example, the narrator says the guys' scene name 100 times. I don't think it was necessary to the story, but as I don't have a physical copy of the book, I can't really judge. Repeating the name of book many times in the writing I can judge. Like since in the beginning and once at the end of the story would have been plenty.

However, I did rather enjoy the book. It's a great quick read. A lot is going on but it all kind of ties in. I will definitely be looking at other works by this author.

Well written. Did not care for the sexual violence, made it hard to get through. Will still try future titles by this author.

Tragic and depressing as always. I love LaRocca as I always know I am going to finish his books feeling awful but in the best possible way. I read this whole book over Christmas Eve and I just flat out ignored my family for this book. I can never recommend LaRocca enough and I will be eagerly awaiting the next book.

At Night I Become Loathsome by Eric LaRocca, narrated brilliantly in audiobook form, is a haunting and deeply unsettling experience that will stay with you long after the final words. LaRocca’s chilling prose comes alive through the skillful narration, pulling you into a dark, atmospheric world of psychological horror and introspection. The story, with its layers of disturbing themes and complex characters, is enhanced by the narrator’s perfect pacing and delivery, heightening the tension and unease. With every twist and turn, the audiobook captivates, making it an unforgettable listening experience for fans of horror and suspense. This is a must-listen for anyone who appreciates beautifully crafted, spine-tingling storytelling.

This is my favorite Eric LaRocca so far. I didn't expect with such horror to also end up so heartbroken. This book does contain a lot of themes that many people might want to avoid,, and never lets up with the feeling of doom and darkness. Right when I saw a glimmer of something that might have been light, it was snatched away. Thanks to NetGalley, I got to listen to the audiobook, in exchange for an honest review, and the narrator did an amazing performance, making it feel even darker. This kind of realistic horror stays with me.

This is Eric LaRocca at their finest! This story was dark, twisty, and just the right amount of grotesque. While Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke is still my favorite LaRocca story, this is a very close second, and I feel like it may win over a majority of horror lovers, rather than only those who prefer something more extreme. And, as a specific plus for the audiobook, this narrator was perfect! He portrayed our main character perfectly, capturing both his humanity and his loathsomeness and genuinely making me feel for someone I otherwise would have considered completely unlikeable. No matter how you choose to enjoy this story, you won’t be steered wrong.

This was heartbreaking, grim, and terrifying tale of bizarre ritual, love, death, trauma, and twisted minds. Tandy and Victor’s story was disturbing, dark, and sick. Jinx’s character is not only unlikeable but the worst character with a dark and twisted mind. The book can be triggering for some. The ending was so heartbreaking. The narration was good

Thanks to the Publisher.

The first Eric Larocca book I could not finish. I liked You've Lost A lot of Blood but they have steadily been getting worse and worse.

3.5 stars!

Nothing like a horror novel when you're looking for a bit of a reset and At Dark, I Become Loathsome is no exception!

I think this is my third of Eric LaRocca's books and he consistently produces uniquely odd stories that are quite grotesque but always leave me wanting story-wise. This was a great character study and I really enjoy internet horror so the chatroom aspect was a great touch. Weirdly I think the two stories within the story were my favorite parts because they were narratively well-rounded and set a very strange pace within the rest of the novel. Ashley's hallucinations of his wife and child I enjoyed less because it feels heavy-handed and makes me generally distrust Ashley's account of reality. The path of the story was interesting and suspenseful but I think it ends on kind of an empty note.

It's solid, it's creepy, but I don't feel the bone deep unease or satisfaction that I like to get after a really good horror story. Still, I like what LaRocca is doing and always love to see what he's come up with. The narrator was amazing, shoutout to him for really putting his back into it.

Thank you to Eric LaRocca and Blackstone publishing for this ARC in exchange for my full, honest review!

Happy reading!

As a fan of the author’s other stories, this book definitely lives up to the hype. Disturbing and addicting, I had to listen to this audiobook in one sitting. Has a great twist and if you’re a fan of strange horror, mystery type books, you should definitely give it a listen!