When the faith that brought you to the ends of the earth vanishes in a single moment of clarity that you can't undo or unsee: what happens next? How do you walk away from the most integrated part of your identity, the very ground beneath your feet? This memoir weaves together the author's religious deconstruction with the collapse and reconstruction of her marriage as she navigates life between cultures, belief systems, and relationships. Transcending its specificity of Christianity, purity culture, missionary life, infidelity, and abuse of power—"Floating up to Wherever" is a story of finding your way after your most fundamental assumptions turn upside down.